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Because the weather is hot, it seems easier to lose weight by eating less calories without depriving myself. I know I have a long way to go but I know I will get there. Even though I’m not posting the numbers, I’m trying not to be too concern about it. I don’t want to lose weight because of the numbers but rather because it’s a choice I made to reconnect my inner-self with my outer shelf.

I’m enjoying more the food that I’m eating because I’m not obsessing about what I should or should not eat. When I have to eat out, I simply eat something with less calories or if I can’t avoid it, I’m just eating half of it and taking the rest as a doggy back for later. You see, I no longer eat the traditional 3 meals a day; I just could not take it! Now I’m going for 5-6 meals a day; smaller portions are the keys. Because I’m eating so many times during the day, I’m actually not thinking about food in an obsessive way because my stomach doesn’t get to feel hunger! I haven’t incorporated an exercise routine to my change of diet, but I’m getting there. I try to use my car less and to walk to take the bus instead. I’m just waiting for my menstruation to be over and I’ll start exercising for real and I’m sure I will see drastic change in my body shape in no time.

Fighting!

I’ve lost 20 lbs already which I’m proud of, but I’ve got a long way to go. If I could lose 10-20lbs more by the end of next month, I would feel like I’m about to achieve my goal. I’m not doing it for others but for myself.
I decided to live for myself and build my own life, family and career. I wasn’t fortunate to find someone to share it with, so I figure that I have to do it on my own. That’s why I entered this journey: to accept myself! I want to feel comfortable with my body shape when I go trying out clothes at the fitting room, I want to be able to take swimming classes in order to pass the diving certificate, I want to wear dresses and skirts (clothes that I haven’t felt comfortable wearing), I want to wear appropriate clothes for the summer, etc….In Brief, I want to do things that I always dreamed of but were too afraid to do because of my weight and shape.I know I’m not big or obese, but because of a health issue I got bigger and my self-confidence shrank proportionally to it. I finally got to terms of me getting bigger, so now I have to acknowledge the fact that my body needed time to heal to retrieve its original fit.

Fighting! I’ll get there.

I’ve never been someone celebrating my birthday, because of past experiences that turned sour for me. You know the type of birthday where you planned something long before to be sure that your friends could make it. Well, that time they all forgot about it and I was left alone going to the theater to hide my sorrow! That was 15 years ago and since then I’ve never celebrated my Birthday ever again!

This year 2012, I don’t know why I was excited for my upcoming Birthday. I wanted to do something even if it means doing it by myself.

After all, I was turning 35. I went to a make-up session at Sephora, then treated myself with some Caribbean foods at Cha Cha Chicken in Santa Monica, CA.

I decided to go then to the Nail shop, because believe me or not but I never have had a manicure in my life; it was my first!!! I was nice, maybe the experience would have been better if I had gone to a better one, but for a first it was okay!

2PM at my clock and I wanted to do more, so I decided to treat myself with a movie; I saw ” Chronicles”. It was not the most entertaining movie of the year, but I like it and left the room with the desire to want more out of life!

Time is still flying by and soon it will be dark and I was starving again. I went to Maison Richard to get some French foods as a take-out diner; it was delicious!!!! Everything remained me of my French foods habits back home!

Well, that was it. That was my Day, of course it would have been great to go out in some kind of nightclub or some sorts or to have a boyfriend to share it with but well, you can’t have everything you want in life, at least for my part! Nonetheless I was satisfied with my day somehow!!!!
I will never forget it.