im getting a trim today.
why am i so damn prone to split ends?
grr its so annoying. i do everything right, and somehow still end up with a hay bail on top of my head. =[
i finally have my savings account up to $100 again!!!!!!!
now if only i could keep it above $100 i wont have a problem!
so i dont really need to do this since i only get acne around my period….. but i should try to prevent that =]
i have noticed that its getting a bit longer, i am in desperate need of a trim though…the ends are getting pretty bad. other than that, its smooth, and shiny and pretty! =]
things are so terrible right now.
worst night ever. we fought all night. till 2 am.
im not happy in this relationship.
i dont know why he wants to be with me. im such a bitch to him.
hes not the reason im not happy. its all the things I am doing wrong. i cant be happy with him, if im not happy at all.
he thinks its like…his responsibility to make me happy. its not. im supposed to BE happy. i dont know how to make this happen but until it does im just going to become more and more distant. i dont want that to happen. i love him, and im so sad.
we used one of our new toys last night.
we came at the same time. it was wonderful, and well worth the wait.
okay so last night was kinda wierd. we were fooling around, it was about 9:30 pm. we dont like to really go at it until late at night, so no one can hear.
anyways, we fooled around for a while, and i gave him his finale on accident, and then he fell asleep…AT 9:30.
what the hell?
better luck tonight i guess. hes off work again. ill try my hardest!
UGH. does he even think im attractiive? come on just do me for gods sakes, im losing it. i just want to be ravished.
oh man. i said some frikkin hateful things to him last night. i feel terrible..he said them right back but that doesnt make it okay.
i was upset, because he tells all his friends that im too hot for him. what the hell is that about? oh i was livid.
if he thinks im out of his league, whos to say he wont freak out, and not want to marry me? i guess i was just being paranoid and scared like always, but it just sucks. =[
i think i might change this goal to “have GOOD sex more often”.
we had sex last night, and it wasnt the best…at all..it actually really sucked…i wasnt all that into it, because im pretty sick, and i couldnt handle him being on top because my lungs hurt, and i couldnt be on top, because i dont have the energy…
were going to try again tonight…ugh.
no stories to tell today. my boyfriends sister got married on saturday, and we were so tired there was no point.
but hey, we had a terrible storm last night (arm of hurricaine ike) so now we have no power, and sources say we may not have power until wednesday (doing this at work where i have power) so we have candles lit all over the house…instant ambience. =]
so we will probably be in the mood later since theres nothing frikkin else to do =]
(trust me, im not complaining)
last night, we were lying in bed, and did the kissy kissy lets have sex thing. then we sat back for a secon and realized that we were too damned exhausted, and we both had to get up early.
plus it was grandmas first night, and it was kinda creepy. better luck tonight =]
okay, so i was cleaning my room yesterday, and i figures i might as well throw the heels on, just to get used to them, and i realized that ive been able to walk in them all along! i knew i used to, but then everyone made fun of me one day about how my ankle slipped and ever since then, my cousin has been pounding into my head that im an idiot and cant walk in them. im fine. shes a jackass.
My boyfriends grandmother is coming to stay with us for a few days. she is in town for his sisters wedding (this saturday), and we couldnt let her stay in a hotel…but that means no sexual healing. =[
or we have to be very very very quiet. which is boring…
last night was good, not the best, but its always awesome.
i think i should change this goal to “have more orgasms”. LOL
just kidding..i almost always do…quite a few, so i have no reason to complain.
but still i gave him what he wanted, and isnt that the most important thing? hes been catering to me in the bedroom the last few times..figured i would pay him back..
i feel like an idiot. my boyfriends sister is getting married on saturday, and i got the most amazing dress to wear to the wedding..the problem is..i cant find shoes.
it will look stupid with flats, and i cant walk in heels..i look like frankenstein.