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STFU1337's Life List
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1. stop eating ice cream at work
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2. Lose 10 pounds
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3. eat organic
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4. Become a vegetarian
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5. stop eating red meat
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6. eat less dairy
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7. avoid high fructose corn syrup
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8. go gluten free
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9. Improve my self-esteem
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10. remember that every day is a challenge, so i need to be positive and win more days than i lose
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11. Stop biting my lip and cheeks
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12. start walking
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13. Start running
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14. see my mom more
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15. use my time more wisely
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16. stop spending money
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17. get a raise
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18. Learn to play the flute
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19. broaden my knowledge of things that interest me
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20. take 365 days of self portraits
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21. keep my room and car clean
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22. Take more pictures
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23. Read more
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24. Grow my hair out
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25. do SOMETHING to my hair that will make me like it
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26. get over him
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27. learn to be happy alone instead of needing to be in a relationship
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28. drink more water
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my friend spent the night because i was just to lonely to spend it by myself.
i have never felt so lonely, and it makes me sick to my stomach.
i cannot eat or sleep, and because of that my head is constantly throbbing and hurting.
and every second i just want to call my exboyfriend, but i have to stop myself. because i know that absolutely nothing good can come of it.
all he has to say to me are hurtful words.
but i decided today (the 29th) that i am going to “go off” to college.
i was originally going to go to community college in my home town, but i have made the decision that i am going to go to san francisco state.
it is only 3-4 hours away from where i live now, but i feel that if i go away for college i will have a chance to meet new people and better myself.
and i just don’t feel i can handle staying here, where i see my ex around daily, and where my good friends have become familiarized with cocaine and crystal meth.
i just feel there is nothing good for me here anymore.
today was a lose, and i am still fighting the feeling of wanting to call him.
wins:loses
2:4
this is going to be a very long difficult process.
i guess we “actually broke up” yesterday.
after he told me many hurtful things that included the words “i didn’t mean to use you”.
i can’t accept this.
i feel sick, and i cannot seem to stop crying.
this is a horrible feeling, and i can’t wait until it stops.
