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Need to refocus on this one….. will make it a priority over the next two weeks.

To bake and sell my homemade pies. My family suggested I do it. I have already received 3 emails! I hope it takes off. I love to bake!

But I am recommitting myself to it today. I got a great big water at lunch today…. It’s a start!

And I’ve used it twice! Now there are no excuses!!

Everything I suggest, my husband hates….. no sense in wasting my time…..

This has to be a priority. I have so many negative health effects when I don’t drink enough water each day. I have to drink at least 2 liters a day. No exceptions.

I am really trying to slow myself down. I expect alot from others because I expect alot from myself. I give alot of myself to the people in my life. I realize it’s not fair for me to expect others to react in the same manner as I do. I think if try to just slow down, maybe I can stop being impatient and give others a chance to do what is necessary. This is also helping me to control my emotions and my reactions to things, which avoids alot of other conflicts. If I just slow down my reaction it calms my impatience, it saves me from over reacting. I want to continue with this experiment. I sincerely hope it works.

I guess I have always been shy. I think I have that social anxiety disease. Sometimes I force myself to make eye contact with people and then after about a week or so I have more confidence but then it just fades off. I am going to try to be more diligent about it.

I want to try to do this every day. I think it will lead me to eternal happiness….

I think I do pretty good at this already but I never want to lose sight of this concept. He takes care of me so I always want to do the same for him.

This list thing is helping me alot. It makes you label the things you really need to do and focus less on the stupid stuff. Since I have written this goal I have become accountable for my emotions.

Another money thing. But the truth is, I hate getting them done!! It’s the biggest waste of time and it is so boring!!

but, I have been getting it done every 5 weeks and it costs alot… SO I think I can save more money if I don’t get it done as much. I just will have to tough it out the last couple weeks….

My husband is Mexican American so this needs to be more of a priority for me. He speaks perfect English, but my mother in law doesn’t speak any English. And if we have any children he wants them to speak Spanish and English. If anyone has any ideas please let me know. I’ve tried a couple programs but they are pretty boring…

Okay so this is totally not feasible at this time…. but it gives me something look forward too. Living in the Midwest is getting pretty old and I am sick of the winter. I just went to Dallas for the first time a few weeks ago and I loved it. Everyone was so friendly…. I felt right at home.

If I save $1000/month for at least the next year, I should be able to do this. It will be hard but I think I can do it….

But I am afraid to take it off my list. It hasn’t been long enough and since this was the whole reason for starting my list..I want to keep it here a while longer. It seems as long as it’s here, I am mindful of it, and aware of it, which seems to keep the ugly monster away….

That there is a disease lurking within my body somewhere, just waiting to surprise me one of these days. Since Feb. I starting taking alot of vitamins and supplements. I have been really healthy. And I am trying to eat healthier and exercise regularly. Most of the people that I know think I am very healthy but I still have this fear. So I am going to uber take care of myself and try to beat whatever may come my way…

But I have this problem of being nice to everyone and I think it allows people to take advantage of me. Like we have some very negative people who I work with and because I am so nice…they love to come over and complain to me. It drains my energy. I hate negative people. I have to learn how to cut people off. I don’t have to be nice to everyone all the time.

I have to do this, I am going to try. And I am going to have to override my husband on this one…. the man has no fashion sense…. His stuff is like out of some frat house or something…. I think I would like to start in the kitchen. Our house is pretty old but I hope if I just take one room at a time I will eventually get it right…