:( my skin was starting to look normal but now its back to having random zits here and there. I used to have AWFUL acne in highschool but now I am 22 years old and in college…and yet my skin isnt becoming “normal” I still am afraid to take my makeup off and I STILL cant be seen without any foundation on my skin. I still have old marks from previous acne and also have some red marks. Its frustrating. I just want normal skin…
SailorMarsRei88's Life List
1. be healthier
2. Get my Nursing Degree
3. get out of debt
5. find a better job
6. be happier with myself
7. have clear skin
8. pay off my student loans
9. make eye-contact and smile
10. Raise my GPA
11. do better in college then last quarter
12. do better in college
13. complete college
14. Not feel ugly
Small comments get to me and makes me feel 10x more self cautious than what I typically am.
A random comment by a stranger, my SO’s friends or family members. I try to brush it off but I repeat the words they subtly said to me in my head for weeks and wear myself down.
I have a wonderful boyfriend who tells me I am pretty every day but I honestly feel sluggish, gross, and unattractive. I feel I do not compare anything to him…a in shape, tall, handsome guy. Some days I feel like he is only telling me these words because he wants to see me smile.
I probably do sound immature right there…complaining about how my boyfriend calls me beautiful and treats me well but I cant help but feel disgusting. I dont tell him how I feel. I try to keep it to myself.
Feb 14th is our 1 year anniversary. Before then I plan on getting a new hair cut, eyebrows waxed and some new makeup. Hopefully that will make me feel better.
I am on the waiting list for maricopa district in Arizona. I just applied. Its a good year and a half (or more..) waiting list. A bit depressing. I only have 2 pre-reqs left for the program (anatomy and physiology II and Microbiology) which I am doing this fall semester. After that, I am not sure what to do.
I am a CNA right now but not working as one yet. No one seems to want to hire a new grad CNA right now and I dont have the energy to job-hunt all the time especially during school and working in a restaurant.
I am about to volunteer at the hospital though. Probably for a good couple of years.
I really would like a decent job while I am waiting for the nursing program though. One that pays well…the job I have now doesnt cut it. And I have to pay 6k for nursing alone. Talk about stress.