SammieB007

Well, maybe I should move this goal. Because I’m done. I have gotten rid of toxic friends. But now I’m alone. Now I have like, 2 friends. I feel like I don’t fit in with the nice people, like I am too weird or whatever to have nice people want to be friends with me. Now I feel more alone. But I guess it is better to be alone than to be around toxic people, even if those people were sometimes your friends. I don’t know. I need to think some more about this.

Well, I adopted one kitten. There were only two kittens in the mobile adoption van, two darling littermates, and I wanted them both, but one of them was in the process of being adopted, so I took the other one. And he is so precious and lovely. What a wise decision, I have no idea why I waited so long. Now I am thinking about adopting another one so they can keep each other company when I am at work, but my kitten seems content enough as it is, and he might get territorial if I introduce someone new. It would be one thing if they were littermates, or if I adopted them around the same time, but my kitten has his run of the house now. I don’t want to upset him. I’m sure he would get used to a new kitten, but I would only get another one for him, and if he is happy by himself, then I am fine with just him.

The two times I have seriously fallen in love, it just happened. There was no trying on anyone’s part, I just happened to meet this person and fall in love. In fact, I was perfectly content just being single, which I don’t think is a coincidence. I think the vibes you send out when you are comfortable and happy with yourself are very appealing to people. And when you keep thinking, “I want a boyfriend, I want to fall in love,” then you are sending out vibes of incompleteness or dissatisfaction or desperation, which are not very attractive. I know, it’s very New Age-y and “The Secret”-ish. But it’s true. Honestly, though, I really am fairly comfortable (not totally comfortable) being single right now. I mean, it’s not like I’m going to have sex with anyone (celibate). So I’m in a pretty good frame of mind to meet someone, the only problem is, I have not been going out at all lately. And it’s not like potential boyfriends are going to come knocking on my door on the off-chance that a smart, funny, nice, pretty single girl is inside. So I need to go out and do more stuff, but not to meet someone, just because I want to do it. In short, if I want to fall in love, I am just going to be me, and be happy with me, and trust that the Universe has a good plan for me.