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Dear Creativity

What have you done to me?
You have taken away the creative juices that helped me write in grammatically perfect and stupendously flowery but coherent sentences.

Why have you robbed me of it?
My brain now draws a blank when I see an empty sheet of Word. Instead of feeling deliriously happy like I used to, now I just shudder at what and how I should fill the page. It scares me that I may be losing touch. It annoys me at how many mistakes there are in my articles.

Did I in my own way piss you off? Why have you deserted me? Is it because I stemmed you in when I got caught up in the rigid structure of editorial work? Can you please give me back my descriptive and flowery words, my out of the box thinking? I want to do away with the structure and just let you flow.

I do not want to begin most of my writings with It is described as. When did I become such a bore? When have I stopped writing fiction and started focusing on factual articles?

Come back to me creativity
I’ll be a good girl and not hem you in.

My best friend, Ber and I were having this conversation about older man. Recently, she had this gigantic crush on a guy many years her senior. He does pay alot of attention to her and according to her, he has been asking her out at least once a week. So I guess there is reciprocating feelings and in a manner of speaking, they jive.

I thought it was hilarious what she said!

Basically, she told me her mom does not approve, if she should pursue a relationship with this guy because of 2 factors. One, he is a christian and not a catholic (fair enough. Valid point). Two, he is too old! This is where I started laughing….. her mother said that his sperms will not be strong enough!!

I told Bernie in between laughs to think about Catherine Zeta Jones and Michael Douglas! I don’t see anything wrong with their relationship, talk about sperm count… they have two kids, a boy and a girl. That is sufficient, if you ask me.

I personally think that older men are sexier and more matured. But hey that’s just me!

Yesterday a good friend of mine, Wai ling and I got to talking.
Mind you, nothing is better than good convo and provoking thoughts.

Back to my talk with her.

I had just finished an interview at my ex-company for an IT-related article.

I was brought around to meet some new people that have joined the company since I left. It was then that I realised that there was actually a sudden influx of pretty girls. The place where I last worked was a software company. And as all software company goes, it is stereotypical to have 80% of the work force being male and the rest being female. Even in the remaining 20%, 3/4 of the girls hold non-IT related jobs, like admin, accounts, etc. The 1/4 left are usually geeky looking IT girls.

Correct me if I am wrong, I dare you!

Anyways so I was telling Wai ling and she also having worked there before understood where I was coming from. We were just having a little talk about how it was like last time for us working there and all that jazz and also about the latest office news regarding our previous colleagues.

There was however, one girl in particular that fueled our gossip into overdrive and into ‘deep thought’. (yes, girls gossip… that’s what makes us girls)

This girl came in after both of us have left and maybe also after the move to a ‘classier’ abode. I told Wai ling that the girl, Jo was really pretty, cause she had the features as well as the fairness of skin tone which Asian guys find very attractive. She said, ‘oh that girl ah, I think she is very lc loh’

For those who aren’t malaysian, lc is the chinese way of labelling someone who is snobbish or prissy.
Food for thought: It just crossed my mind that Kim has called me prissy before ! hmph!.

When I questioned her further as to why she called her such a strong word, my nice and gentle friend told me that once when she smiled at Jo while visiting the office, Jo just completely ignores her. She came up with the theory that a girl will snub another girl when they think that girl is prettier than her. I was just like what the?!!

If it was any other girl who told me that, I’d laugh. But Wai ling, she can say that and get away with it. She is pretty and of course the world knows pretty girls get away with a lot of things.

The reason for my what the??!! reaction is because I sometimes am a snob too. I just don’t like making small talk, they are just a tad superficial. So I asked her, ‘you mean to say that I brush people off because I think that they are prettier than me?’ And this was when she said that it is by case to case basis. I laughed.

But it doesn’t really stop me from wondering about the complexity of us girls. I am beginning to understand just a little bit about how guys feel, in terms of figuring us out.

So.. is it really true?

A pretty girl snubs another pretty girl because she thinks that the other girl is prettier than her?