Sapphirexstar

I am dying to move out on my own but it is hard since I am an only child and I feel I am leaving my mom & grandmother behind.

Sometimes I like who I am and sometimes I hate myself. I think I hate myself when I try to be someone I’m not. Overall I think I’m pretty cool. I listen to good music, am not into girly flix, love animals (especially lizards) and I enjoy playing sports. I take pleasure in simple things and I’m not stressed easily even though when I am stressed it’s pretty bad. I don’t know why I try to change who I am to please people. I used to be able to open my mouth and say what I felt but after many years of put down I’ve kind of evolved into something I don’t want to be. I don’t even make much sense but I need to go back to who I used to be.

I hate credit cards. I owe so much money. Arg. I owe my boyfriend $3,000 and my credit card $4,000. It blows. My boyfriend took my credit card and shredded it but what sucks even more is that I am currently unemployed. I wish I could hit the lotto and win big.