It’s an odd feeling. It’s nice…but it still kind of scares me. The first time this ever happened to me was on my third date with my boyfriend. I was so terrified. I had no idea (really at all) how to kiss. And it was in his car. I really liked him so much and I had always wanted to…especially since my best friend was raving about it…but it was kind of scary…and still kind of creeps me out a little.
Sassygurl595's Life List
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1. learn to take a compliment
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2. not get jealous
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3. get engaged
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4. create my own secret garden
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5. become less enraged at instances of stupidity
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6. Read more
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7. learn to use a sewing machine
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8. travel into space
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9. help my best friend build her self-confidence
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10. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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11. choose a major
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12. plant daffodils
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13. never drink alcohol
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14. see U2 in concert
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15. go to the opera
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16. stare at the stars all night with somebody.
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17. get over my shyness.
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18. buy a tandem bicycle
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19. learn how to drive stick-shift
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20. Stop being so defensive
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21. allow myself to be vulnerable
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22. trust someone completely
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23. Be confident about the choices I make in my life
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24. purchase a new car
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25. move out on my own
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26. own a volkwagen touareg
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27. find work I'm passionate about
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28. have a garden full of fresh herbs and vegetables to replace buying at the grocery store
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29. figure out what I want to do with my life
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30. scrapbook
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31. Kiss in the rain
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32. write a book and have it published
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33. live in the country
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34. Send a message in a bottle
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35. learn to horseback ride
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36. get married, stay married, and live happily ever after
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37. spend more time with my dogs
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38. have my own library in my house
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39. stop biting my lip
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40. live in a house with hidden rooms and secret passageways
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41. own every single classic television episode on dvd
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42. get a degree in philosophy
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I lost my virginity to my first boyfriend when I was almost 18. I always wanted to wait until I met the perfect guy and I never thought I was going to hence, I never even thought about this happening. But, it will. It’s definitely not worth it to lose it to someone who doesn’t care about you though. My boyfriend was also my first kiss and I was really glad that I waited to find the perfect person for me to share those important things with me. I have been with him for going on two years…and I love him more than anything and he loves me. I would never regret it at all though because although it might not have been absolutely perfect the first time, it was an unimaginable feeling of closeness and warmth. But it’s definitely only worth it if you love each other. If not you, should just wait.
I used to never cry in front of people. Now I cry, when ever I have to. It’s terrible to feel like I can’t do something that I have the urge to do. It used to feel like I was trapped with a huge knot in my stomach and I just couldn’t stand not being able to express how I felt. I felt like I was ashamed of myself for feeling such emotions. I just didn’t want to let anyone know how I truly felt. Now, I think of it just as a huge release. I truly feel as though I have less weight on my shoulders when I just let my feelings show through. It’s definitely worth it.
