I'm doing 13 things
....I feel so bad I can hardly get out of bed, but have had to drag myself to work each miserable day – where I’m pulling my team down and failing miserably.
Everything is incredibly difficult I just want to sleep….and eat.
I don’t see the point in this miserable little existance anymore, my partner is at his wits end with me and we’re barely talking, I’m a failure in work and dragging everyone else down, and I’m making my family desperately unhappy, I just can’t be bothered with it anymore, this whole fcking thing is pointless….
All these fcking people telling me I’ll feel better if only I’d do this or that well they can all f*ck off too because you know what? nothing is going to make me feel better, the only time I feel better is when i’m asleep or unconscious. I don’t want to excerise or walk and why suggest to me that going out and socialising might make me feel better??? I’ve barely looked ina mirror for a week and a half!
Megynn you’re right but not only does it help to read about your ups and downs but the writing it in the first place helps – I think this is the most I have “spoken” for about a week now and definitely the most active my brain has been, maybe I’m over the worst and going to come through the other side…I do hope so.
