ScarletAndMustard

So..

You need to listen to song 10 on the Mika album to really understand the depth of feeling and utter hopelessness that our love for each other was manifesting. Neither of us could bear to listen to the song knwoing that in reality that was what faced us.

However.

Things change and so do circumstances. We found ourselves both unable to bear the thought of living forever without each other and so are not. We are together having the luxury of being able to be two people with one set of goals for real.

It is not easy but it IS worth it.

Had the most amazing experience of being able to spend real time with Col Mustard. Was like a kid all week before it happened and had that slight niggle of worry that when you look forward to something so much it never really pans out. Turns out that this was not the case and words can never describe how perfect every aspect and event of this time was.

If this were to be written in a novel you would think how wonderful. But would immediately think it would never happen, real life is not like that. Well for this period it was.

We stayed at the Grand hotel on the sea front where a concierge took the car (who had gloves over his shoulder – how cool!)to park it. (v Funny – you never see a maserati but we parked behind another one – a four door sallon and not as nice) A porter took the bags from us and then carried them up to the room.

Fantastic room – amazing size bed which we ensured did not feel left out for the period we had the room (ahem)

Walk along the sea front and ate crab sticks and crayfish in the sun. Walked through the lanes – marvelled at the little shops and returned to find CM had arranged Champagne on ice, chocolates and strawberries.

Cocktails and supper in the hotel bar with CM looking extremely dashing in his velvet jacket (yum) and back to watch Top Gear! Best bit was knwoing we could go to sleep together and wake up together whilst in the knowledge we had so much more time.

Today was just as perfect inclduing a visit to Bright Pavilion and the asscoiated museum.

So why did it nearly break my heart on the journey back. Why, when I have had all the extra time, is it at the point of killing me to go. Today the pain was nearly unbearable and I so wished for that time travel bubble to just take everything away.

I know it is not just me, and I know I love Col Mustard more that I thought would be ever possible.

I just want to thank you my love for one of the best times of my life.

I love you.

Ms Scarlet

What an amazing building this is – totally blown away by the dining room dragons – so much so that we had to go back to re view. That was fun as it allowed me to step over a rope that was a no entry rope! How naughty!

Ms Scarlet