so yeah, i ain’t even gonna lie. green, pie, hash, heady, gotta love it all. but i’ve tried and tried taken the courses my friends offer. even went to barnes and noble and looked at “rolling a blunt for dummies” i still can’t master the art of the dutch masters. maybe one day, when i least expect it my fingers will figure out this dark mystical magic. lets hope for it!
ScarySara's Life List
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1. get over myself
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2. laugh
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3. Meet the Dalai Lama
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4. make a difference in the world
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5. love someone
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6. go to south africa
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7. live to see the world end
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8. become more motivated
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9. learn how to roll a blunt
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10. become an accomplished artist
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11. admit to him im crushing
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12. never cry for someone who won't cry for me
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13. taste the rainbow
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14. make funny faces at small children
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15. play the air banjo
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16. make cupcakes with hidden messages inside
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17. learn how to change oil in a car
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18. change oil in a car
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19. climb in a window
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20. cry.
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21. stop being sick
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22. runaway
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23. dance w/ a midget
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24. make a porno and send it across seas to europe
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25. be a dominatriss
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26. learn how to krump dance
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27. be on inside actors stuido
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28. become a household name
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29. publish my poetry
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30. loose 50 pounds
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for the longest, i was that annoying kid in class going “come on guys, it’ll be fun.” but i got tired of it. tired of pushing people to try and do something they didn’t want to do. tired of pushing my self to do something i knew i couldn’t. so i stoped trying. my grades have dropped my self image has dropped and so has so many other things in life including my appitite to a dangerously low rate as well as my weight. any ideas?
i’ve been so numb lately. and on top of it i keep getting horrible news. my friends are going through so many adjustments in life that can be detrimental to their futures. i’ve learned that choices i made in this past year are going to haunt and follow me now for the rest of my life, i don’t want to have to deal with that. especially not now. all i want to do is cry but i’m always surrounded by so many people who expect me to be this strong outspoken young woman. i can’t.
