SelfHater

Hi guys!

I used to use this site about a year ago. Thanks to the support from other girls I got down to about 130lbs from about 165 in just over 2 and a half months. Ive been doing ok, am up 10lbs to 140 n i hate it. Since Ive come to uni my diets crap and I drink so much that the weight has slowly started to creep up and I want to stop it now.

Im going on holiday to Sri Lanka for a week from tomorrow, I’m going to try to eat as little as possible and drink as much water as I can over the week and eat only veggies. When I’m back from the 1st I’m going on a water fast for 7days. I know if I have this site I’ll be able to do it. If anyone wants to join it’ll be great.

Just find it a bit difficult cos housemates know I’m bulimic and keep an eye on what I eat n make sure I eat properly but its got to a point where I only care about my body now. I look back at pics from just a few months ago and just as the weight slowly started coming on, it makes so much difference. I know once I get back to my old 133lbs I’m going to be so motivated. Just the first step then on to 110lbs :)

Hope ur all cool n getting on well

x

Weighed myself and back to 133lbs again, lost 3lbs in last few days so I’m back to my last weight before I gained and happy. Gotta keep my head up and stay positive. It’s shown me that even after a bad week, eating way too much crap and gaining, as long as you stay focussed and have the right attitude you’ll find a way to get the control and results you need.

It’s funny though cos it’s shown me that my weakness and what get’s me down is gaining and the only way out is mia’s way, I knew I was getting sucked into this but it’s gone to a whole new level and I’m not bothered by it to be honest. It’s what keeps me going and happy so it can’t be all that bad. I really don’t know or care. Just wanna be happy with myself. :/

Keep smiling, stay strong.

xxxx

Had under 300cals today, walked for about 45mins and hopefully do some squats and sit ups in a bit. Not sure though but doing ok since I came on my period today and in so much pain! Been so low because I’ve been eating like an animal recently but now I’m posting here again I feel like I’ve got my sanity back, so thank you to all of you gorgeous people!!

Just telling myself not to get hung up over my bad days, take each new day as it comes and make sure I don’t repeat the same mistakes. It helps.

Hope you’re all cool

xxxxxx