Miss Sha

Good bye nicotine I have left you for good.
Thanks for the boost Chantix.

Card 1 – $37 left to pay
Card 2 – $250 left to pay

I’d say that’s a mighty fine jump for someone who was up to $1200 in credit card debt!!! Thank God, I’m almost there.

Sometimes I’m not sure if I could ever actually live my life to the fullest. I’m actually not even sure if it is attainable at this point. But one thing I’ve learned recently, with the help of my sister, is that your life can be full if you just learn to live it. . . to live and be and do what you want. Obstacles are always put in front of us not to discourage but to make us appreciate everything so much more.

Time is such a fragile thing and if you don’t learn to break barriers or bad habits or learn to love again then you’re just living the same moments over and over again. I can’t live feeling hopeless or lost anymore because in doing so I’ve wasted so much time. Time that I could have used doing all of the things I’ve always wanted or going places I’ve always dreamed of. . . nothing’s ever too far out of reach and if it is then ask for a hand.

So, am I worried about living life to it’s fullest, or is it really one of my 43 things that I have to accomplish?? No. It’s something that I will realize one day when I look down at my hands and see how much these hands have done in a lifetime…I’ll look in the mirror and see how many smiles and tears it took for me to know that face….and I’ll know then that my life was lived to the fullest because I would have never made it to that point that day. As for now, I’m just worried about being me, in it’s entirety.