Shallon

This is a hard one I think. I’ve been doing quite well actually, but he called me tonight upset and just wanted to spend time with me. I didn’t really know what to do; it’s not that I don’t want to spend time with him, but when we’re still only relying on each other when we get upset then we can never really move on.

It’s not so much that I’m having a hard time being on my own, it’s that I have a hard time being with him. Everything is kind of awkward still and I’m not really sure what the boundaries are and how much we should see each other. We’ve been best friends for years now and we didn’t end on bad terms, so it’s hard to justify spending so much time apart.

I guess I’ll just have to work on it some more. I did try to explain to him my point of view tonight, but I think he was just hurt by the whole thing and I feel horrible about not being there for him. It makes me mad sometimes that he puts me in these awkward situations were he asks me to spend time with him. I think time apart is better for us, but I feel horrible saying no when he is upset.

All well, time to go spend some time with my friends and relax… it is Saturday night after all….

So… not doing so wonderfully with this one so far. First week back to classes and I was excited to get on track, but so far I’ve been doing a lot of hanging out with my friends until way too late. I have just a couple more weeks to fix it before my deadline!

So… I just finished The Other Boleyn Girl by Philippa Gregory after a six-hour reading session when I probably should have been doing other things! That’s okay though, because it was absolutely wonderful and constantly offering new surprises all the way through to the last pages. I’m thinking I might go order another book by Philippa Gregory tonight!