Shohini

I just took the paper on Cell and Molecular Biology, and I could tell the professor was taking revenge! But, if(I guess), I was more enthusiastic about it, I would’ve aced this one, and easily. Oh, well. What’s dones done. I could still top. The next one in my cup of tea. At least, that’s what my internals in Bio-Organic Chemistry say.

It’s finally happening! Travelling a bit, once a week, with Sarah for a 2 hour class with the teacher, who seems perfect! It’s happening!!

I feel my feelings for him waning away, bit by bit. It’s still hard, knowing how once you love someone you just can’t stop loving that certain someone for the rest of your life. It’s hard to accept the fact that your feelings and your opinions may not necessarily coincide with his. His priorities will always be different. But, the hardest fact to accept will perhaps be my efforts to be indifferent to him will always be ineffectual. I hate being consumed by thoughts of him. The more I push him away, the more the universe seems to be pushing him on me.

But, I WILL move on. No matter how cold the concept of moving on might be, I will move on because I have to take care of myself. I will move on, because if I look from up above, I will realize that I cannot afford to be consumed by him. There’s such a lot of difference I can make in this world with my individual strength and life force. I will move on, not just for me, but for the good of the people around me.