ShootForTheStars

After a lot of thinking, I’ve come to a realization. I think… I think that if i stopped calling Lisa it would make her really happy. I realize that both of us can’t be happy at the same time. I would be happy if our friendship got patched up and everytime we hung out it didn’t end by Lisa saying she wanted to go home. (Reasons will vary, but usually its because we’ve gotten into a fight).

Lisa will be happy if it ends.

Then, she’ll have more time to spend with her friends. Her real friends.

And I want Lisa to be happy.

So the answer is clear.

I don’t know how I’m supposed to do this. All my other goals are SO much simpler. “Stop biting my nails”. I know how to do that one. Just STOP doing it. “See the world”. Once again i KNOW HOW TO do this. Buy a plane ticket and get outta here! It may not be easy, but i know how to do it.

This one is a little tougher.

No. A LOT tougher.

Because I don’t KNOW how to do it.

So let me start off like this. Lisa is my BEST FRIEND. Our friendship seems to be…how do i put it….? Our friendship is basically going downhill.

I don’t want it to.

And at first, Lisa would always blame that on me. And i thought that wasn’t fair; it wasn’t my fault.. But then i realized that it was my fault. I must be a horrible friend.

So i’m gonna be a better one.

But i don’t know how.

Hmm…. Think with me…

Should I stop calling so much?
I think that annoys her….

But then again i’m always the one to call her, and if i stop… we’ll stop talking.
I’m always the one to say “let’s hang out”. So if i stop, we’ll stop hanging out.

And I don’t want that to happen.

So, that wont work…..

I’m trying to make my room more ME-ish. And I’m doing a great job. I love to do crafty stuff, so pretty much all of my room decorations are made by me. It really shows my personality and i’m LOVING it!