I needed, not just a job, but something NOT soul-destroying, that paid well enough to support a baby and a musician (my partner) and possibly led to sufficient income to buy real estate. I needed a career.
And it turns out, the trick to motivation is to uncover what you want!
Unrelenting self-excavation led to some self-understanding, and once I understood what I needed to have in my life, I went for some career counselling and found out what steps I needed to take to get those things.
And I was lucky/blessed/both to find a fantastic career counsellor. In Ontario there is lots of free help available, thank the Powers!!
It is important to never hesitate to accept help! If you insist on doing everything alone, you are just stretching the trip-wire across your own path!
And now I am working for a non-profit organization, helping people daily, being useful, not embarrassed to tell people I meet what it is that I do. I am making $42,000 a year, and last year I bought my first home, a 3-bedroom townhouse condo.
I do feel very successful right now. I pretty much saved my own life, and I am so grateful that help was there when I needed it!
I love to help other people toward great results like the ones I got!