which did not go well. Bit gutted actually because I really revised and perpared for this one and I felt that that exam did not in any way represent what I’m capable of. The only good thing is that everyone found it hard – not just me.
It actually knocked my confidence a lot, especially as the Bio. exam the day later didn’t exactly go to plan either.
I have 2 modules left and not v.many days to revise for them (5 exams in a week!!!!) so I needed to do well in this one. But hey, we’ll see on results day.
and its been weeks or even months since I last lied. I haven’t even been thinking about it. I think I eventually got rid of it by asking myself if i REALLY wanted to lie, because what would be the point?
to fit in more revision, and hopefully start a new habit. I always feel it’s such a waste when I lounge around in bed ‘till 12 and feel horrible for the rest of the day, so I’m going to battle against my teenage REM cycle!
2 of the 5 modules I’m sitting, both went ok-ish I think, couldn’t answer 1 question on one paper (7 marks down the pan) and I think I made a couple of stupid mistakes on the other one (put AgNO2 instead of AgNO3 even tho I was arguing with myself for about 5 mins over it in the exam hall)
but hey, they are over and done with now – just got to do my best in the other now.
Because I’m spending a lot of time on chemistry (but have not yet revised for the last module!!!) I feel as tho I havent done enough of my other subjects. Hence why I’m sitting alone downstairs at 2am wih tears rolling down my cheeks.
I hate this, I know I’m supposed to think positive and everything but I CANT. I just know I will miss my uni offers and will have to reallply and resit chemistry next year, although the syllabus runs out then so I have about a 2 month window to do it in.
I HATE THIS I HATE IT.
I just can’t be bothered most of the time. Just got some new moisturiser so have been rubbing that into them for the past few days and they look a lot better!!! Too bad I’m going to start going to the gym again and they’re gonna be all horrible again.
Just did my practical exam (counts for like 5% of the marks or something) but it went REALLY well, knew a lot of the answers, but lost a few for stupid things but that has DEFINATELY got to be a “B” standard
where nothing was going in thinking I’m just going to fail …etc etc, but feeling a hell of a lot better today!
Just need to keep going over equations and stuff and not put myself in situations were it is impossible to revise ( in school which is a bit backward but hey..)
I think I’ve actually got over this, I just dont give one anymore. I’ve realised that almost everybody else will have some kind of flaw/anxiety and so won’t be focused on mine.
The problem is that it comes up whenever I’m in a new situation with new people, so I’ll probably be ok until September when I’m hopefully going to uni, so until then this goal is considered done!
Been hitting revision hard. All in all I’m doing 5 modules of chem. and am confident with 1 of them another 2 are ok-ish…. I need more time!!!!!!
I am tall
I am ginger
My favourite bit of a song is always the bridge
I am an avoider
I am crap at small talk
I am not good with children unless they are relatated to me
I am awkward (and probably always will be)
I will probably be just a little bit fat
I am sarcastic
I am confident (sometimes)
I get super motivated for about a week at a time
I don’t cry
I listen to weird songs that no one has ever heard of
I repeat quotes off films
On bad days I always doubt myself
I like clothes that I couldn’t bring myself to wear
I think that everyone else is cooler than me
I am an avid tea drinker
I don’t get the fascination with technology
I never carry my mobile anywhere
I like books
I get stressed easily
I have too many bad habits to count
and usually at any new situation, I am scared shitless.
I think thats about it.
that I only stop caring what people in school think of me when I’m going to be leaving said school in about 2 weeks, or maybe thats why I’ve stopped caring….....
2 months of doing CVs, handing over 200 of them out and finally got an actual job!!! Got called on Mon, interview Tues, job was offered today (wed) and I start on Saturday!!!!!! SOOOOOOOOO excited, should be much better than my last one!
almost everyday, the ironic thing is that I feel guilty for not revising my other subjects, like I’m neglecting them or sonething.
Feel even worse when I completely don’t get something and just hit the metophorical “wall”. Got a hell of a lot to do before tomorrow when my tutor comes round for an hour.
They DEFINATELY wont admit me with anything less, so thats bye bye to my social life for the next 6 weeks.
Had a tutor come over – was v.good but suddenly realised how much work I’m going to have to do to achieve this whilst not letting up on my other subjects.
Feel overwhelmed already! Its going to be a tough ride.
I start to feel the paranoia creeping in once again, I have devised a tatic to channel “Jess from the Gilmore Girls”. The one and only fictional character that truely doesn’t give a damn. Makes me feel a hell of a lot better.
Also, seriously, whose going to give one in 10yrs time???
the other week and I have only just reviewed the photos – needless to say they are not good.
I have realised that whenever I feel bad about something I relate it to my weight, “When I’m skinny I’d talk/dance/shop more”.
This has to stop now, I’m not living my life properly and I used to be happier and I want to get back there.
Total overhaul of diet/exercise/motivation tactics tommorrow.
I have had my new haircut for 4 hours and LOVE it, makes my face look like a semi – normal shape!!! and also hides the 4 finger forehead. Should have done it much sooner, I am going to a party later and will assess reations to it.
