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I believe that God has a plan for everything and everyone, even if it’s not something that we humans understand at the time. Some people choose to never understand it because they either don’t want to believe in God, or they’re just being rebellious to him. Others just can’t see why God chose to do something at the time, but later are able to understand His reasons because they’ve seen the deeper results of his work.

But sometimes that can suck.

For example, I think I’ve figured out why married men tend to put on a few pounds in the cheeks, belly, and sometimes other places: so that no other woman will find him attractive anymore, except for his wife. I used to get complimented or asked out pretty frequently. It was cool and fun, and it made me feel good about myself. Now that I’m married, not only do I never get asked out anymore, but I also never get a “you look nice today”.

On most days, I really couldn’t care less about complients on my looks. I care more about having people’s trust and respect than I ever do about my clothes. But sometimes on that one idle Tuesday, I think that it would be nice to get a compliment about my physical appearance.

But that never happens anymore. Why? You guessed it. Married belly.

I know that my wife loves me, and that’s cool, but sometimes it’s just not enough. I want someone that I either don’t know, or am just aquainted with to say “hey Ryan, you look good today.” And my belly really isn’t all that big, but it’s there, and I’m right on par with somebody who has been married for almost 5 years and has 2 kids.

I’m not really gaining weight either. I’m hanging pretty steady in the 205-210 range, although I’ve never really changed my diet or exercise habits… but that is about 50 pounds over what I was when I was married.

I want to start exercising more often, but there are problemswiththat. So for now, I think I’m going to stick to walking up and down my staircase frequently, and hope that I’ll have time on Saturday to get out and walk that 3-mile route that I’ve been eyeing for a while, but have never actually walked.

I have a really nasty Pepsi, Red Bull, Amp, and Rockstar addiction. If I ever have a choice between those and anything else, I’ll always go for one of the 4 (except for whren I’m eating spaghetti… then it’s milk).

I’ve tried the whole “drink half your body weight in water” thing, but I have a habit of either forgetting to refill my cup when I run out, or just crave the sugar that my favorite sodas have. I know that this ties into my married belly goal, so I just need to learn to fight off those soda cravings, stop justifying them with “well, other people drink coffee, and that’s just as bad”, and make it a point to drink more water.

Maybe one of those really big bottles would help… or maybe getting one of those huge 64oz cups that I just have to fill twice, and that should more than cover my preferred water intake.

It’s been 9—almost 10 years since my two best friends and I have lived in the same city. My parents moved me away when I was 16, and although I have always talked to them frequently on the phone, it’s never the same as actual quality face-to-face time.

I moved back for a year after I graduated high school, but at that point, my best friend Jeff moved about 100 miles away to go live with his dad. By the time he moved back a year and a half later, I had already been forced to move on to somewhere else.

About three years ago, my other best friend Eric joined the military, and moved away too. Not that I really notice much, because it’s still just telephone time, and so the face-to-face thing never really comes into play.

In an ideal world, I would love for all of us to live in the same city, wherever that may be, and just have the chance to spend lots and lots of quality time together again. I miss them so much, and with me living out in the boonies these days, I simply crave human interaction with the people I’m closest to, but never get.