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My daughter will be 8 months old next week. I went back to work full time on Jan 9th and it’s been SO hard, especially since I get so little time w/ her now. It’s up at 5am to get showered and ready, get her up by 6am to make sure she is fed and dressed, then off to Daycare by 7am, work by 7:30am, pick her up at 5pm, feed her, play/read with her, then we’re off to bed to do it all over again. I’m so grateful that I had the first 6 and 1/2 months with her all to myself, but it’s REALLY hard leaving her every day, even though I know I have to so that I can support us & provide for her. I’m not worried about giving her expensive clothes or toys, but I do want to be an awesome mom. One that listens, loves, accepts, laughs, plays, inspires and motivates, etc. Please G-d, let me work at being a great mom every single day, and may I never forget what an important job that is!

Accepted an offer over the weekend (that was verbally accepted the week prior), had the home inspection, termite will be done later this week. I’m representing myself (no agent) b/c there was no reason to pay $22K in commissions when there is nothing that an agent needed to do for me. I never listed my house, didn’t have any open houses, etc. b/c the person buying my house is the BF of a good friend. But even if I had ended up needing to show the house to potential buyers, I’d NEVER use an agent again. They don’t do shite for their money IMO (apologies to the good agents out there), everything that needed to be done like the Disclosures I was able to do myself and everything else will be handled by Title/Escrow. The end.

Meanwhile, I’m sad to leave my house… and not at all thrilled about packing up to move. Ugh. Hate moving!

Wishing all the rest of ya who have a house for sale the BEST o’ luck for a speedy sale!

Cheers!

I don’t know how to reach him… I keep trying, but there is always some kind of disconnect with us. And everytime I think we DO connect, he pulls away for several days (and even up to a week) thereafter. Maybe I’m not being as direct as I could be? I haven’t any idea, I get no feedback. So, for today I’m giving up. I have our daughter to raise, I can’t try to guess anymore how he feels about me. It’s exhausting. And I’m getting nothing for the trouble. I wish I knew how to be a girlfriend at all, let alone a better one. But I’m really trying. I want to be clear about my intentions, I want to be a woman of integrity, one that is kind and loving and adult. All that good grownup stuff. Especially b/c we have a child that sees and hears all that we do. But for today, again, I haven’t got a freakin’ clue.