Solstice_01

I failed in contability- it sucks

Ok, I have started this goal by doing abs since last week.

I really wish I could have a flat belly and I’m also going to the gym 3 times a week so I hope this all works out.

Haha, I actually want the body of this pic

I’ve been going for the past 6 months, i’m doing great. I’m really happy with the results..

Now i’m 108.50 lb

SO CLOSE

damn i keep dreaming about my ex boyfriend
i cant stand it anymore
it sucks … because i dont want him back and everytime i go to sleep there he is ..
i wish they have some anti-dreams-pill or something like that

is there any meaning in this? because last night i had a dream that we were getting back together and everything was fine between us. it was so real.

so i woke up this morning and surprise surprise! alone in my bed. haha ….

ok the real thing is that im ok by mself and definitely i dont want him aback
i dont want to see him again either
im starting my life all over again
its a hard thing to do but ill survive and be happyyyy

i hate him
he’s such an hypocrite…..
fuck,

damn i hate that son of a bitch, he can kiss my ass

i just talked him on messenger and he didnt even reply…...

who the fuck he thinks i am?

im so pissed off!

If it ain’t fun don’t do it

Awesome!!!
Now i’m 105.82 lb THATS SO GOOD! :)

I WANNA BE FAT ACTUALLY HAHAHAAAAAAAA

YIJAAA

And when we meet
Which I’m sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I’ll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I’ve moved on….

Ok, i’ve just removed his photo from my wallet… and that means a lot to me.

Yesterday I missed him SO much…. it’s like lately i’m thinking about him 24/7 and it really sucks because he isn’t even around…

Damn, what should I do…. I know what to do but it’s so hard to get over him just like that . I thought it would be easy but it isn’t easy at all.

He was such a special boy to me .. and now that I don’t see him around I feel a little empty.

I don’t know what would be better, to meet someone else that i like or just get back together with him someday if we figure out things….

I thought life was all about being serious and do adult things …BUT THAT’S SO WRONG

Life without having fun makes everything appears boring and rutinary

I used to worry a lot about things… I cried a lot too..

But then I felt stupid that way , I was feeling so powerless… so weak!

And now I know that with FUN the world is much more interesting :D

I ‘ve come to this point..where I feel kind of lost.
It’s hard to explain because I thought I had it all, but the problem was that I never value what I had. And now that I’m alone I just want to have everything back.

I need to start over.
New friends, new boyfriend, new job, new heart & mind…..
New everything .

And for the very first time, have the life I always wanted, I just hope I have the courage to start over; I know I can do it.

I did it once, 3 years go…. it was AMAZING

But I want to do it again!!!

Today I felt completely happy! after a longgggggg time ago….. Wow it’s an amazing feeling.
I felt complete with myself… so secure and happy!
It’s something that I can’t describe…
It’s a mix between positivity and joy…
A lot of things in my life are missing, but still I’m focusing on the good things and it works!
I hope I continue like this my whole week…month…or my entire life!

Yayyy! today my weight was 101 lb …i’m getting closer!!! :D

I want to do this for my b-day!!!

i work on it everyday! :D

This is something i MUST do this year! It really makes me feel excited about it…...

My goal is to gain weight … and have strong legs! That’s it…
I used to be very skinny and i didnt like it at all… and now i have the time to go to the gym and exercise 3 times a week.
I know i can make this happen, i just have to be positive and persistent