SomeoneSomwhere

I met someone butheisntjustsomeone

It is the worst time possible withthemoveandall

He's going to break my heart we'vealreadydiscussedit

If I pull out now, I can save my heart the pain butiwouldneverforgivemyself

Maybe I'm making to much of this ohgodihopenot

Nothing seems real buttheknotinmystomachis

Give it time butthereisnone

I don't know what to do myheartmakeslousydecisions

So I ask you, the “someone” I am speaking about nothatyouwilleverreadthis

Tell me what to do ihopeyoufeelthis

Are you, is this,... anotherlousydecision

something to throw caution… pain

to the wind for? icant….idont…dontmakeme

I knew I was gaining weight. I could feel it in my clothes, I could see it in the mirror, I KNEW I was gaining weight. I took the plunge yesterday and stepped on a scale. 144.5lbs. My mouth pratically dropped open and I wanted to curl up into a ball.

I usually sat at 127lbs. I always wanted to drop weight when I was there. Now I have to lose weight so I’m just gonna do the whole thing.

So As of 1.31.06 I am:
5’6”
144.5lbs.

Lets see how this goes.

I will start saving money to do this. I once heard a teacher tell me a story that if you start with a penny and double it every day you will have like a million dollars in a month so why not do something like that?

How about 5 dollars a week? That’s not too hard.

When I get back to california I’m gonna buy a jar and decorate it for my new home fund.

yay!