Spatel

Im not a nice person, i never have anything nice to say and im really really bitchy and its come to a point where ive stopped speaking to my best friends. i really dont know what to do because im starting to hate school because i know half the people there hate me :( but i guess i deserve it, the only way to make things better is by apologizing because things wont magically get better :( but im glad i got my boyfriend and ive got someone to stand by me when everything goes wrong, i really should learn from him :)

Lately schools been quite a struggle..alot of my friends are showing there true colours..and the whole environment just makes me feel really uncomfortable :( im really starting to hate school and im starting to lose all motivation :( :( i seriously dont know what to do! i want to get good grades and get into UEA but the way things are going now i dont think i’ll be making much of my life :(

ARGH! its so annoying and i know i should be working my ass off and i know all this shit thats been happening should motivate me to do my best and prove everyone wrong

THEN I CAN HAVE THE LAST LAUGH! so i guess i should forget everyone and just focus on myself.

well since my last post i only lost around 2lbs so im 8st 8lbs which aint that bad, gone down to a size 10 on tops and my legs have always been quite skinny so i can just about fit into a size 6 which im not that happy about i would rather be a size 8 :(