Starwolf22

So I’m kinda using this part of this goal as a blog of sorts for just me to see. I got into my first fight with my husband last night and I’m hurt and confused. I feel like he’s truely sorry for what happened at New Years and I really think he’s telling the truth that he didn’t know that it was enough to hurt me. But all at the same time it did and it still does because he got pissed at me and said I was just repeating myself over and over and beating him over the head with it after he said he was sorry. All I wanted was answers to why, and what he was thinking….but I guess I didn’t come off like that at all and I just feel like I’m still hurt over nothing, that the whole thing was nothing at all and it was just me being a psychopath. I don’t know what to do but it’s probably going to be just let go and nothing more said about it even though I would like some closure over the questions I still have. I feel cut off from him because these thoughts aren’t put to bed and I just don’t want to be too close. None of this was like him and I feel cautious and confused. He’s been withdrawn and quiet all day and hasn’t acted like himself since right before it all happened.

But here I am back again on 43things to update my goals. I’ve lost another 5-7 pounds and I’m very proud of myself for keeping the weight off. I may not have made my mini goal of doing it in a few months like I’d wanted but I did keep the weight off and now I’ve made it. So here’s to being 175 lbs now. Another five pounds to make my total of 40 lbs lost!

1) The wedding went off wonderfully and I”m now married to the greatest man I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet let alone date.

2) That the wedding was done in our faith and no one complained.

3) That we’ve only got a few more months before he’s home for good from over seas.

4) Talking out future plans and making a partnership of this marriage like it should be.

5) That the pregnancy test I just took came out negative. Maybe later but no need for that right now.