Alright, how can i explain this.
I havn’t had any romantic experience in my life unless a 3 week relationship formed in teen desperation counts. Yet i have always been social and found it really easy to make friends.
I am outgoing, friendly, unafraid to be myself, and proud of who I am, I know i’m a good person.
The problem (I believe) is i had a few minor disabilities when growing up, I’ve never been good at sports because of them, have a lisp, etc… This meant i spent a lot of my time with girls growing up, I’m not a masculine type of guy and being friends with girls is so easy for me. For this reason i was always told what a lady’s man i was going to be.
So anyway, I’m 23 now and i realise that i am not a romantic option for girls, I don’t really know how to sexually flirt and have no confidence in my ability to do so.
I have had many close female friends in the past, but thats all i’m able to achieve, if i’m in love with someone it’s usually because i know them well, admire them and am sexyally attracted to them, but by this stage i’m in the friends basket and even though i’ve tried i never seem to be able to change that.
The common belief is when you stop looking for love it will come knocking, but i’ve done that before and always end up back here.
This has become my main focus in life, which as a student is a horrible thing, so i need to solve it.
I don’t think i can take becoming the ‘best friend’ again. I know i’m a good person and so do those around me, but no matter how much they say they love me, its not the same as being ‘LOVED’
This shouldn’t be killing me, but it is, i can’t cope anymore.
I need to become romantically attractive