Steez

I have no idea the connection I acheive with people,but sometimes I wish I could let it go.There is no fuckin reason care about certain people.People have to make there own mistakes and live with them.I have to accept that.

When you feel like youre burned,you wanna just burn back.Stop at nothing to teach a lesson and show others who you are.No one can fuck with me.BUt sometimes its good to stop and realize why you were burned.Maybe it was trully my fault.Whats the point in showing people lessons if they wont be learned and more pain and guilt will set in.Sometimes you have to learn to lose.That dont make you a loser.At what point do stop haboring over the honor and pride lost?At some point you need to instill it elsewhere.Its all a fuckin game.Its how you play it.

I’ve fucked many people over,and never realized what I was doin till it was too late.I had a decent girlfriend that I constantlly cheated on.She was fuckin crazy and selfish but I guess I loved that about her.I was involved with the wrong people.I was used and used people alike.I always find the right people and each woman im with is hotter and nicer than the next but I always fuck it up.I constantly push them all away.I need to realize that those in my past are there for a reason.I had a coke problem for over a year and just like that,one I day I said I need to stop.How the fuck can I just stop all my past and quit everything I feel?Without my past who would I be?Wouldn’t I lose my Identity?My past experiences have taught me thing or two about life,for that I really am greatful.I’m sure thi’ll be edited time and time again.My past memories haunt me and I feel myself constantly lookin for a new identity,attemting to better my self.But who the fuck would I be without my “self”?Was it my mom?Did she influence how I view women?Was it the certain lifestyle I was used to?What fuckin roles do people play with each other?I have to find a way to not let my past dictate my future.There are so many people that trully love me and yet,I consistently,subconciouslly push them away.How will anyone beleive me when I need to adress these issues?