Tests seem to be forced onto me right before Summer, which is quite stressful to me. Every single quiz and test from now on counts greatly and I believe I’m going through some sort of shock since I can’t really bring myself to believe that. With a mix of longing to make the stress go away, I’ve been having constant and difficult battles with myself. I came this far, I can’t let myself down like this!
The studying is maddening at times, learning facts and methods, so many methods. I’ve never been quite bright at Maths and Chemistry, which is kicking me in the butt in return. The last stretch until Summer is this week and all of next. Then… Then I’ll be done and able to relax. Until then, I’m afraid I will not be on here frequently. :(
I do hope that everyone here is able to make that final stretch. In Track and Field, we have a term for this, though I forgot it. The ending n a race is something that decides weather you’ll be in the A string or B string. Strange, really. Though, I know all of you are probably heaps more stronger than me. Keep on persevering, my friends.
Today was quite a pleasant one, the weather had a spot of clouds in the morning that cleared by day. After the seemingly relentless 8 hours of school, my good mate and I went off on the tube and went by the sea to catch the last rays of the sun. Odd, but it was quite nice, everything was so great! Though, I had this odd turning feeling in my stomach, and the only phrase that came to mind was “the calm before the storm.”
I have a feeling that these next couple remaining weeks in school will be quite stressful, and with stress, temptation almost always follows closely behind. I will have to be diligent and check in here daily as to hopefully ward off any temptations. I saw many people fall as I check in here today, I have to say that the actions of these people was still greatly commendable. They made it way past what they believed they were capable of and made a new personal best. Pick yourselves up, dust off, and try once again. I know you all will rise and make personal bests.
Best of luck,
It seems today is the start of many great days to come. I just received the news that a meeting on Friday has been canceled, and that I’m able to go to my good mate’s party. I’ve been so stressed and busy these days, I haven’t gone out for fun in months. I really can’t wait! Temptation has been surprisingly low this past week, which is quite a godsend for me since prior, I’ve been trying to hard to resist.
I only have a couple more tests till this hell of a week is over, and I can finally relax a bit. I’ve been asking myself for a while why I’m pursuing this goal. I’m not sure if it’s just me, but lately I have been feeling a lot better about myself and incredibly free. It’s a terrific feeling. I shall write more tomorrow. Hope everyone else is pursuing this goal with tenacity and vigor.