I’m still a door mat – for the most part. Last week a crazy lady at work made me mad so I called her crazy and stupid right in front of her face. She deserved it. It felt good to be able to stand up for myself.
Today I was having dinner with some people and one chick said I was a dork. I was offended but I didn’t say anything. Now I’m mad at myself for not saying something back to her.
I started feeling depressed again yesterday. First of all, a crazy bitch at work lied to my boss that I called her a crazy bitch. Yeah I think she’s a crazy bitch but I didn’t say it to her. Second of all, I got into a fight with my fiance. Third of all, I lost my driver’s license.
I was feeling so anxious that I could barely sleep last night. Then today I was spacing out. People were talking to me and I was just kind of in La La Land.
I started my new job on July 1 and I love it there! There’s a lot of young people in my office so I can mingle with them. I made some new friends so far. The most solid bond is with a guy name Eugene. The others I’m still trying to get to know: Chau, Michelle, Xavier, Jake, and Nate. So far so good tho!
Oh almost forgot. I made a new friend name Jane. The cool thing is she lives like 5 minutes from me! We get along so well.