Every time I get into a good mood, I sabotage it, because I know good moods don’t last.
I sleep to escape my problems.
I can’t interact properly with people, because my mind is constantly thinking that I’m boring and not worth talking to.
Small tasks like cleaning my room are becoming overwhelming- I’m not motivated to do anything.
Is this anxiety? I used to be such a confident person.
Most people know me as a happy, bubbly person- what they don’t know is that over the last 6 months I’ve been virtually beating myself up inside about everything. I have to force myself to get up in the morning because I have no motivation to, my ‘friends’ and uni life feels like a whole big comprimise of myself as a person- I’m lost as to why I’m here in life.
I wish I had the motivation to break away from my old friends (but im too scared to make new friends because i feel like im boring) and to find something actually worth doing in life (but I don’t think I’m good at anything). I wish I had the confidence to talk to people about this depression and not hide behind a facade of happy and bubbly. Ugh :/.
17. Finding a good book with a good ending for once!
18. The smell of rain
19. Dewy grass
20. My favourite magazine, Frankie
21. Phantom of the Opera
22. Eating healthy
23. Someone saying I look beautiful
24. Customers at work who genuinely smile at you :)