Well technically I quit on Monday but I’ve cheated a few times at this point. I do great during the day when I’m at work or even at home. The problem is when we are drinking, I just have to smoke. I think I’m going to re-work this goal to only smoke when I’m drinking and then work on cutting that back once I can handle it instead of just going completely cold turkey.
Sunshinedreem's Life List
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1. Quit Smoking
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2. learn to speak German
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3. pay off my credit cards
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4. knit a blanket
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5. sell one of my paintings
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6. keep my house clean
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7. stop pulling my hair
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8. Get organized
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9. go to California
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10. visit another country
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11. paint more often
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12. learn to make candles
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13. visit every state in the U.S.
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14. learn to sew
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15. go to a Broadway play
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16. stop picking my face
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17. learn bellydancing
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18. Learn to speak Spanish
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19. Be more green
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20. drink 43 types of beer
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21. raise awareness for responsible pitbull ownership in an attempt to clear the pit's terrible reputation
2 entries . 5 cheers3 people -
22. Make people realize that BSL (Breed Specific Legislation) makes no sense.
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23. learn sign language
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24. Today I will...
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25. Try a new recipe each week
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26. exercise at least twice a week
1 cheer62 people
Ok, this still sucks! I’m on day two and I know it’s a bit easier than day one but I’m still one hell of a grumpy person! I flipped out because I couldn’t find the newspaper this morning, my poor dog got screamed at again for licking his foot for too long. I really feel like I just want to rip my hair out and scream, but I know it’s not going to help. The worst is when I actually let myself eat something (I swear I want to snack all the time to help fight the cravings). I get the worst urges to smoke right when I’m finished eating.
I’ve been awake for about 5 hours and I’m entirely miserable. I have been bitchy, grumpy and generally just need to be avoided at this point. I even got annoyed at my dog for breathing too loudly! Seriously, I hate my life right now but I hope that I can stick to it and that this will be worth it.
My goal is to allow myself to spend $20 – $25 for each pay check that I receive and still am not smoking. That way I can at least reward myself with something fun and nice twice a month to keep myself motivated and encouraged not to spend my money smoking and use it for better things.
