SuperBucket

Recently I feel I have been a better friend. I have come to the point in my life where I see life is happening now, and I don’t have to wait until some vague time in the future when it will finally “begin.” I am actively living, taking my life into my own hands. I am attempting to, as Gandhi said, “become the change you want to see in the world.” I used to be so closed off to everyone emotionally. I wouldn’t let anyone see lower than the surface. And now I am slowly letting little pieces out, showing my true colours and using my abilities to help people.
It is a wonderful way to live.

I think it was an essential part of my emotional and spiritual development to find someone I can confide in, and just as important, be someone that person can confide in. I’m not talking about just any old type of confiding. I’m talking about one-on-one, something-I-thought-I’d-never-tell-a-soul confiding. But it’s more than just one something, it’s everything about me. He is quite honestly the only person who knows the real me, understands me, and at the same time allows himself to be revealed to me, the only person that knows him. It truly is a great feeling, and it is only enhanced by the fact that we both love each other. :)

As part of the church season called Lent, my promise to myself was to not insult anyone (and that includes any put-down, joking or otherwise). I hope this will lead me to finding fun with my friends without joining in all the “fun” name-calling. While it has good intentions, I still feel that it is useless and reduces confidence levels that are far deserving of being sky-high. My friends are amazing and I know they don’t deserve to have insults hurled at them; I also know that I wouldn’t want them to do that to me.