Sweetz102

I have realized that knowledge is one way to attain englightment however it must be balanced with something else as well. If you go too much one way it won’t happen.

I have realized that knowledge and meditation are the two things that I most strongly need to grow. First I grow spiritually and then I grow everywhere else. I don’t know why it works that way but it does for me personally.

I think I’m going to try taking a journey deep into my soul. Every so often I become inspired to write. I don’t know what I will write but I do know its in my soul to write. I’ll attempt once again.

I belive that write is a journey inside your soul, especially if your writing fiction. Can you imagine Stephen King? There’s only one book of his that I liked, “Lisey’s Story”. It showed me more than anything what his soul is like. Interesting eh?

My Kundalini arising happened over about a month period after which people who had known me for years were amazed at how I had changed. I felt like I was moving up a spiral and I could see the top, enlightenment, if I only I could’ve kept going.

Now I realize that in my particular life it will happen in spurts. Mine happened because of the knowledege I had gained from reading and talking about spiritual concepts for the year before.

Now I must be careful to keep growing spiritually and not forget it.

Even though I’m only 18 I’ve already started doing this. Its absolutely amazing what life will give you when you follow your heart, and live with what is right to you and not others. Don’t let expectations others have for you change how you think!

I want to become enlightened.

Have you ever woken up and looked around to feel your heart nearly explode with joyfulness that you are, and just that you are? That makes me happiest out of all of life because in the moment I love everything, no matter what it is, I love it and nothing can ruin life for me. That moment makes everything perfect. Now… If I could just hold on to that feeling all the time…

101. Dancing!

10 – 100. LIFE! EVERYTHING ABOUT IT!!! How could it not? Even the most horrible thing happening to you has a reason behind it and as soon as you overcome it, you are stronger and better for it. How could you not like life? It has its own reward system, its own challenges, its own way of working, so DANCE! Dance like you’ve never before, because this could be your last dance!

Lol. Went off on a random blurb there, but its true…

09. People in general usually make me really happy.
08. A friend who is happy.

I don’t want to do this anymore.

Amazing movie. Amazing.

I don’t know what my previous entry was talking about. I can’t decide what I want to do with my life. I know a few things though.

I want to travel.

The more I think about University the more I don’t want to go. The more I feel trapped, and the more I dislike the idea of University.

I want to become enlightened, even though I have no idea how. Like I really do. Its the one thing that I know I’m working towards, though I don’t know when, or if I’ll achieve it.

Lately I’ve been thinking alot about leaving. Just packing up and leaving. I’ve always really wanted to be like a gypsy, moving from one place to another freely. I have no idea how I’d make money. I figure I’d just live in my car, and drive around. Canada first, then maybe the US, Mexico, South America. What about Europe? Lol. I have no idea how it’d work. But I have a car, and I can do Canada! I just want to travel a bit, see the world before 2012. Any suggestions?

Lol. I don’t think I’m any closer to deciding what I want to do with the rest of my life than I was 6 months ago. Those are what I’m thinking right now though.

I am everything and everything is me. We are all one. Silly paradox that everyone’s heard? Once you understand it, it solves alot.

By your very existence you change the world everyday.

I bought myself a 1987 Mustang. Looks like a piece of crap, but it runs. Lol. I bought it for $1100, and put so far, $350 into it. New tires, and brake cables done, and an emergency brake is left… Oh, do I want a nice looking car? Paint job.

But I love my car! It runs! ITS A MUSTANG! I LOVE IT!

I finished one semester early, and I’ve been accepted into University, though I doubt I’m going to go. The more I think about it, the more I dislike the thought of being stuck in another school thats forcing me to pay for classes I don’t need and don’t want to learn. What classes do they have that I want to take? Metaphysics, Quantum Physics, Spanish… Thats about it. Three courses? Nah. I’ll learn it myself, at least right now.

Half way there. Half way there.

Very good book. Just want to see the movie now!

I started on my novel yesterday. So far it is four handwritten pages long. YAY!

07. Being given a sincere (sp?) compliment.

06. Accomplishing a goal.

01. Recieving a reply to my entries.
02. Recieving a letter in the mail. Not e-mail.
03. When some one says “Would you like a bag with that?”. lol.
04. Reading an amazing book, like the Alchemist.
05. Hanging out, and talking with my friends.

Today, Chellie complimented me and said that I made her smile! I made her smile today :D YAY! She’s my smile for day one. I think I shall do this for forty days.