Guys and Girls,
I have been struggling with my weight for two decades. I have tried practically everything. Let me tell you that recently, on one of my many searches for a better way to win this struggle I came across Tim Ferriss and his diet.
It is the best thing I’ve ever tried. It is realistic and effective.
Try it out!
I haven’t lost anything.
I’m not sure if its because I’m doing too much…or if I’m eating something wrong or something.
It’s really frustrating. Now I understand why some people get surgery or whatever.
I totally binged today. I learned a few things from it though.
1. If you travel without buying fruits and veggies before hand, everything goes downhill.
2. I resolve emotional stress through binging (how can I change this?!)
What happened was I traveled to Dallas. So I had the stress of travel on me and then I got a speeding ticket (the first one ever). It sent me into a flurry because I’m so afraid to screw up after I finally gained my parents’ trust. Plus I was lost so I walked into a gas station and there were twizzlers (my vice). So then I downed a whole thing of those and sent my body into a rage of hunger that didn’t stop until I finally stuffed a whole calzone and side salad into my fat fucking face. I feel so angry at myself…I feel like I’ll never feel beautiful and thin ever. To let you in on a little secret…I tried to throw it up because I so upset but I couldn’t…..I wish I could have been strong enough to resist today.
How I will prevent this in the future:
1. Bring along grapefruits
2. Before walking into a gas station really coach myself not to give into my vices.
3. If I get mad or upset, scream instead of eat.
I can forgive myself for this and make up for it tomorrow by being extra healthy and working out more.
mom totally cancelled that fling…maybe it will happen someday….but its not worth having on my list and getting depressed over.
stepping on the scale this morning.
130
I love feeling this way.
I’ve come up with some rewards (always gets me going). If I make my first week goal I’m going to buy some new make-up and dye some of my hair an interesting colour. I feel a lot more beautiful when I wear make-up (isn’t that strange?) and feeling beautiful always helps me to keep going on my diet.
An interesting observation: apple cider vinegar is disgusting but it makes the hunger feel like its evaporating instead of like when it feels crushed by a huge meal. Give it a try…just sip a small bit of it over a period of time.
SW: 137
CW: 131
in four days: 127
GW week 2: 120 (this will be the hardest week)
GW week 3: 117
GW week 4: 115
I’ve been running, guys. I’m sort of getting addicted to it…I have a tendency to get addicted to things (which is why I’ll never drink or do drugs or cigarettes or tattooing).
Keep posting!!!! Support each other….yay!!!
I just have to frame it _
I don’t even know how many pieces there are. You guys will be able to see it once I put up my website and all.
The next one is started, hopefully I can get some sketches done today of what I want the work to look like (sometimes I like to plan this stuff out).
I’ll let you guys know when they are done and posted so you can see them (this is so exciting).
:D
sucks…I was half out of my mind when I decided that name.
One cool thing is I got a new computer and it has a cool program for web building. I’ve made a sketch of what I want each page to look like and I finally finished the homepage.
Maybe a name will come when I find the right look….
I’ve been dieting and exercising my whole life. I have no idea why I am so flabby. I’ve eaten just fruits and veggies for a week straight rollerskating to the art store everyday and I didn’t lose an ounce. The only time I can ever lose weight is when I’m REALLY starving and exercising crazy (like two hours a day).
One cool thing though is after eating just fruits and veggies for a week my craving disappeared I didn’t even WANT to eat candy or pizza like I used to.
I just wish I could accomplish this
So I haven’t checked in on the scale in a while…I’m planning to on Sunday. I’ve been getting better at running (a knee brace really helped me do this). I now run four miles.
A little theory I’ve been thinking lately is about diet soda (my vice). I’m thinking it might be the cause of my increased appetite (spelling?). So I think I’m going to cut it out of my diet spectrum. I’ll let you know how it goes.
SW: 137
CW: 131
GW week 1: 127
GW week 2: 120
GW week 3: 117
GW week 4: 115
celery is disgusting but I eat a bunch of it and then chase it with a low cal (and delicious) beverage. This is pretty low in calories and makes for a full feeling.
I’ll keep you guys updated with cool tricks I’ve discovered. One thing I noticed about myself is that I tend to eat things just to get rid of the after taste of something I just ate. I’ve been trying to drink something (like tea) or chew gum instead.
I decided that I would check this off (although it can’t be checked off because it never ends). I don’t like having something on my list that can never be checked off so instead I’m posting smaller goals that are involved in making art. Specific and attainable (did I hear that in a class once?).
Anyway, the art is doing okay. I’m away from home so I don’t have all the supplies I wish I had (but I am still making a few things as well as thinking about things I am going to make back in the studio).
Specific
Attainable
Let’s go!
It hurts not to make any art.
Made a ton today
thanks everyone.
Maybe you will run into (if I ever get my website running (and I think I will because it is on the list (I’m pretty good at lists))).
1. MAKING ART
2. ROLLER SKATING!!!!
3. getting an “A”
4. When someone tells me that they love me
5. my sister
6. Being around Coby
7. feeling skinny
8. having a choice
9. Finally being able to get over my ex-fiance
10. traveling
11. Live music
12. books books and books
13. learning
14. winning
15. When someone understands my jokes
16. hugging anyone
17. driving with the windows rolled down and the music blaring
18. When a pair of pants that didn’t fit me suddenly fits
19. beating all the guys at quake 3
20. holding hands with someone
21. being busy
22. Overhearing a conversation that is interesting
23. The smell of my mom’s clothes
24. Someone calling me by a nickname
25. A professor calling on me for an answer
26. Stand up comedy
27. Sun shining through clouds
28. free refills
29. free samples at the grocery store
30. The sound almonds make when they fall from your fingers
31. Opening a new box of crayons
32. Doing things for others
33. Meeting someone new
34. A GOOD movie
35. Going to the gym
36. Playing laser tag
37. going to the park in the middle of the night with friends
38. Getting a new favorite book
39. the taste of hummus
40. My favorite food being grapefruit
41. Make up a new recipe (and everyone loving it)
42. When random guys flirt with me
43. Technology
44. Genuinely wishing someone a good day
45. Making my mom laugh
46. seeing Jill smile
47. visiting my sculpture
48. Someone staring at my art
49. Explaining my art to someone
50. My eye contact with strangers and then smiling
51. helping someone
52. blowing bubbles
53. Walking on the beach
54. drinking soda
55. swinging on swings
56. Going to Blue Springs
57. climbing trees
58. Floating down rivers
59. not being sun burned after a day at the beach
60. being able to type damn fast
61. being free from a religion
62. having a cell phone that isn’t broken yet
63. Laughing at my mistakes
64. Not being on drugs
65. smiling
66. sleeping in the closet
67. feeling my sister’s hair
68. taking pictures
69. knowing exactly where madagascar is
70. incense
71. watching a camp fire
72. hiking
73. canoeing
74. thinking
75. making ideas come to life
76. writing on my shoes
77. making up poetry
78. cold pillows on a hot night
79. chai tea
80. the way he touches me
81. falling asleep
82. being thankful that mom lived one more day
83. being able to sew
84. I can RUN!!
85. skiing
86. playing videogames
87. standing out in a crowd
88. seeing nice houses
89. running through the sprinklers
90. building a tree fort
91. having a secret place
92. feeding animals
93. when byrdle mimics me
94. watching the ballet
95. mini golf
96. getting mail
97. going bowling
98. playing the piano
99. Someone telling me a secret
100. Holding newly hatched Wood Ducks
I’ve noticed something about us….we don’t eat enough. I started thinking about what our bodies must be thinking (oh my god there is a famine, shut down everything and store up!!). So I’ve decided something about the way I am going to work….I’m just going to eat small things every few hours. Small healthy things I honestly don’t think people can really keep up on starvation. Girls, we weren’t made like that.
Small
Often
Healthy
+
Fun
Long
Exercises
Tell me what you think (I love that kind of stuff).
The first thing I did was look at the book “1001 Books to Read Before you Die” but it was kind of lame (and I’m too ADD to give it time to improve). So I went to this section of Barnes and Noble and they had a list.
So the first one I bought (I’m really not going to buy all of them, I’m a big library person but I’m visiting a place I don’t have a library card to) was “The Idiot”....which seemed funny at the time.
I bought the ticket already. Now I just need to buy a friend. I’m going to try this guy I’m SORT OF seeing. I have an engagement ring I can pawn….I tried to give it back to him but instead he broke into my house and stole my computer (and also left the ring (I ended up stealing my computer back)). It was his loss (not only of his reputation but also of the ring).
Any suggestions about what to see there?
