TRiley

We’ve been talking marriage and kids and that we want to spend our lives together. We’ve both been open and realistic about the fact that that doesn’t necessarily mean we will work out, but it’s the first time for both of us where we both feel we’ve met the one you marry and are with forever.

Which, in a way, I guess makes me slllightly nervous but happy at the same time since this is what I’ve always wanted and been looking for. But yeah, never had it this real before and really enjoying it. In hindsight, the few girls that I thought were possibilities for marriage, that I thought I might marry, now just seem so not right for me.

Before there were so many things that fit about us, but there was always at least one major thing that I knew from the beginning that might now work in the long run. So, this is the first time where something with someone is just so nice and easy and just works and where it’s so completely mutual and loving and she’s so committed and willing to work on anything or talk about anything.

It’s 100% reciprical. I haven’t felt this close to someone in probably 10 years or so. Really connected. Normally, if I have an insecurity about something a woman I’m dating who is supposedly so into me, it’s like she sees it as a sign of weakness and just shuts down from me. With Beth, she is loving, receptive and will listen, support me and assure me of anything I need. That’s all I ever wanted before, is just a little assurance, and Beth has no problem giving that to me, which just makes me stronger.

It’s really a nice and wonderful relationship and I’m so happy we found each other:)

I’ve been doing a lot of work in the house and I feel I’ve gotten it to a good point where it feels homie and comforting. I don’t get quite that nagging feeling that I used to get of things that needed tending to. Putting the bench in the living room and my new duvet and new down comforter were major things that made a huge difference in my comfort in the home. If I would have known I would have done them sooner.

I’m very proud of what I’ve done so far and still have more that I would like to do. But I feel at peace with it enough that I can live comfortably and carefully budget in new things to add to increase the appearance and comfort factor of the home even more.

Pat on back:)

It is still a bit in the back but mostly to the left hip and upper leg. It was doing so much better than it was before, consider it used to be almost unbearable to sit for more than a couple hours in a chair. Now, I’ve been hiking, rock climbing, biking, doing deep tissue massage, chiropractor and recently got a yoga DVD and have been doing it at home. I was doing so much better before the time change and it getting dark early. And I also went for a month with no chiropractic or massage work, which didn’t help. And I’ve realized that using any girl but Jenny at the massage place is almost a waste. The other do good upper body but don’t do good work on the hip.

So, I need to keep at it and do what I can. Especially since I want to do more writing in my free time and things for myself, which requires more time at the computer or sitting somewhere writing.

And especially now that I have the young girlfriend who is full of energy I want get back to where my muscles are functioning properly so I can be as active and free as her without possible injuries.

Heal Me!