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SO IT’S SO EASY TO GET LOST IN THE MAYHEM OF LIFE THAT WE DON’T STOP, ADMIRE, AND GIVE THANKS FOR THE THINGS THAT WE HAVE ALL AROUND US. THIS IS A GOOD WAY TO REFLECT I THINK.

SO LIFE IS JUST KICKING MY ASS. ALL WITHIN THE LAST MONTH, I HAVE LOST MY JOB, HAVE BEEN REJECTED FROM VARIOUS JOBS FOR NOT HAVING MY DEGREE (I HAVE THE EXPERIENCE, BUT NOT THAT DEGREE), AND BEEN REJECTED FROM OTHER JOBS FOR STILL TAKING CLASSES. I JUST SEEM TO HAVE LOST A HOLD OF LIFE. AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. I DON’T HAVE THE SAME CONFINDECE THAT I USED TO. I FIND MYSELF TELLING MYSELF THAT IF I’M NOT ENOUGH WITH A JOB, MONEY, ETC. I’LL NEVER BE ENOUGH WITH IT. DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? I DON’T KNOW. ON TOP OF THIS, I CAN’T SEEM TO FORGET MY EX GIRLFRIEND. MAYBE I JUST HAVE MORE TIME TO THINK NOW, OR MAYBE IT’S CAUSE I’M GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME, OR MAYBE I JUST HAVE A HARD TIME LETTING GO OF THE PAST. I DUNNO, BUT I CAN’T STOP THINKING OF HER. I KEEP TRYINT TO BE POSITIVE AND THINK THAT MAYBE LIFE IS TRYING TO TEACH ME SOMETHING, BUT I JUST DON’T KNOW. I FEEL LIKE I’M NOT UTILIZING MY TALENTS AND JUST BEING WASTED TALENT.