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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTYFT0EwluI&feature=related

A lady describes what she has bought.

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=christmas+crap&search_type=&aq=f

There`s a lot of excellent, honest and funny stuff on Youtube about this.

If only everyone were honest about how crap Christmas is! Anyone who hates it is made to feel like a pariah -“Bah Humbug”, etc.

But, of course, you`re not.

Hating this tacky festival is just a natural response to something that`s expensive, boring, and forces you to spend time wth people you`d often rather avoid.

Speak the truth.

Just say, “actually I dont really like Christmas. I prefer to save up my money for the summer vacation. Thanks for the thought, though.”

I`m working very steadily and efficiently.

I plan a painting trip somewhere, but I`m not sure quite where, possibly to the moiuntains.

Am still waiting for canvas to arrive from the UK- vry annoying .

This may be a reality sooner rather than later when we move flat…

Again, a whimsical idea. I`ve other priorities, like going to Buenos Aires.

I am glad to say I`m going to be getting a new batch of students following a sort of restructuring of my days.

I am utterly sick of the ones I have now , the feckless ingrates.

I`m getting my thoughts in some sort of order, with help from this therapist. Her thoughts are often banal, but at least she listens, and asks questions, which is more than can be said for my friends!

Ironical that you have to pay someone to listen to you these days! I don`t think I`m that boring.

A new, excellent tutor, a considerable improvement on the duds that I`ve been working with up to now.

I feel I`m going somewhere with this, finally.

I`ve managed to re-order my days so this s less of a problem- that is, I spend more time doing stuff and less time aimlessly surfing the web.

It`s really a question of focussing on setting up other activities, rather than abstaining.

Anothr piece of whimsy- this almost certainly isn`t going to happen soon, if at all.

Better to explore s. america more.

This really isn`t a serious likelihood- the goal was whimsical.

I`ve other priorities, I`m removing it.

This guy has set up a website about this. It`s pretty good.

http://www.stevethepro.ukf.net/xmas/index.htm

So I`ll try to make contact with him.

I think it is all about choice. Christmas feels so much like an obligation

I feel despondent about this. I don`t know quite where I`m going, or for what.

I do need a grand plan, it almost doesn`t matter what.

There was a plan to build a house and this would have satisfied this, but that fell by the wayside for reasons of cost.

The painting project, which involves (somwhat unsystematicilly) documenting the suburb in which I live, is perhaps the nearest I have to a grand plan, my only potential source of srtistic redemption.

Trip to the canyons coming up.

I have a much better tutor, so I am making som e progress…or so I feel.

Pronounciation continues to be a problem.

Going very well, with a confident new set of paintings underway.

I had sucha rough patch last year with painting, everything seemed to turn out badly.

It`s great that I am enjoying it so much  more, though I would be hard pressed to say quite why.

I`ve ordered some new canvases and they should come eventually from London (very expensive, so fingers crossed).

I think that, if there is some sort of lesson to be drawn from my experiences with painting, it is to see things in the long term, which in my case is about a year, in order to see any improvements or to work through any problems.

I do this…I`ve internalised it. It`s coming off the list.

I feel less depressed about this. I think it`s really all to do with the coming show, and getting th pictures back from the framers- they look good, or at least, the overwhelming majority do- and I think the show wioll be successful.

I`ve also realised and accepted that I just don`t like people, in a gneric sense, enough to teach more than I am and I uite like my, somewhat hermetic existence.

I`m also happy about habving the new canvassses as a project for the next half year.

I`m going painting later today.

My work is looking more like Cezanne`s, these days.

I`m going to start watching tv again. Eeven though it`s idiotic, I do feel it helps.