Talos_Valheru

I had a great week, cutting back on the food, exercising very well, then last night big arguments with the wife and big dinner to make myself feel better.

Dummy.

Why can’t I keep away from the food when I know I am depressed?

This Friday I am seeing a counselor for the first time. I’ve been trying to keep a handle on things myself, but it doesn’t seem like I am able to do it on my own. My wife tells me I have to take responsibility for my actions, I can agree with that. I guess I feel cheated though because while I do not blame my wife for making me lose my temper, she can push my buttons very easily, but will always tell me she isn’t pushing my buttons. That pushes my buttons as well. Am I losing it and going crazy here? Maybe this will give me some validation. Hopefully it will give me some ability to keep calmer and not blow up. I can recall things my father did when I was a kid, and I do not want to impart that on my son. He has his own issues as well (he’s 6) and I can see too many similarities. I don’t want him going throught he same things I did.

We did have the party in the house, but we aren’t completely finished. However, we have electricity, running water, heat, floors, doors & windows. What little we have left to do inside is moldings, finishing touches and the like. Outside we need to build the deck, and underneath we need to put in some insulation and some braces, and to attach the floor joists to the foundation with some bolts. VERY CLOSE to finishing this goal!!!!!