Tanzverbot

I wanna change my life. I think I am not doing enough. I am catched! I cant move And I feel like it will be like this forever. I am just 18!! So I wanna change my life. I wanna be more happy and crazy and do stuff JUST FOR ME! I wanna be more selfish. Also I wanna be a bit less lazy and more mature. I need to finish school, so i need to learn. I wanna have friends, but everyone seems so … black and white, but I wanna be colourful! somebody understand????? I need to do something … just something i feel a bit more alive.

And I wanna be a size 8! Till Summer ‘08,
so I can swim in a bikini and I wont be ashamed :)
I wanna be able to wear short skirts ,
even if i will never wear them because too short is embarrassing :P I wanna be able to wear good looking clothes i really like
and no longer look like a miss piggy, u know?
Soooooooo, chakka lets do it :DDDDDDDDDD

I think having a penpal might be nice, but i am just not able to do the first step :( ... dunno … well I have had a pen pal once, but she just wrote, like 3 sentences and i always wrote so much i felt so bad, like she just write it in a minute and I think about so many stuff i wanna tell her :’( so I quit writing and she quit and well we quit kinda .” dunno … I really would like to have a pen palllllll . damn >.<” dont need to be snail mail at the beginning, but after knowing each other for a while, maybe :)