I’m still walking down this road. I haven’t found exactly what I’m looking for, but I’ve realize that the journey is what its all about.
For those of you that may want a place to start or a little something something, read Siddhartha by Herman Hesse. It’s REALLY small. But I’ve read that book every year since I was 13 and it consistantly gives me goose bumps.
As a Canadian, I really feel something about the outdoors and the land. I’ve lived all over the world and I’ve met some people here and there that get the idea. But I think it’s something that speaks particularly to Canadians. I mean, its so easy to just drive a short distance from your home and be in places that have never been walked by any human. I grew up with family that made sure I had this sort of view of the land. A view that the land is something special and to stand in awe of it.
This goal for me means that one day I want to set out into that wild. I don’t mean some Thoreau “Walden” type experience. I mean, I want to say that I set out into the land and truly lived there. Not with a camper or gas stoves. That I made a true effort to live within nature and to experience it has it should be. This idea has always spoken to me and I can’t wait for the day.
I have night terrors. These aren’t your garden variety nightmare. I mean, think of nightmares and sleep walking rolled together. It’s incredibly scary.
When I get stressed out and start worrying about various things, they usually start up. The worst part is that the lack of sleep makes the stress that much worst in the end. I know to stop the nightmares, I need to handle my stress better. But I just want them to stop…