I'm doing 38 things
Probably everyone has special goal setting dates; first day of the new year, birthdays, first day of spring, etc. I have held the Fourth of July as Independence Day not just for my country, but for myself as well. On this day, midway through the year, I can still turn things around, get on the right path, and pursue my ambitions. It is a day I can set myself free of all the mistakes and poor choices I have made up to that point. I can break the bad habits I have built up, I can reverse courses that aren’t working. On Independece Day I don’t have to answer to anybody but myself. I free myself from obligations and commitments that don’t serve me. I take a serious look at my relationships and decide whom I do not need to throw more emotion and passion at, and whom I have not invested in enough that really deserves it. I reevaluate if the job I have is the one I want, or the one I feel safe with. It is also a good day to look frankly at myself, judge if I am on the way to becoming the person I want to be, or if I am off track, still living as the person the world has made me.
Today has been a good day, but I know I can do better. I know I deserve better. My life is not everything I want it to be, and it may never be. But today I have sorted some things out. Independence is invaluable to me; of thought, of choice, of action, of love. Freedom does require courage and sacrifice, but the reward is immeasurable.
