TattooedVWGirl

“I didn’t find the perfect moment. Because I think that today was about just having today. And I think that we are one of those couples with a long story, when people ask how we found each other. I, will see her, every now and then, and, maybe one year she’ll be with somebody and the next year I’ll be with somebody. And it’s going to take a long time… and then it’s perfect. I’m in no rush.”

I’m in no rush to wait.
But I can’t wait forever.

Almost done.
So excited to make full CDs of this.

9) Weightlesss – All Time Low
8) Forgive Me – City & Colour
7) Day Old Hate – City & Colour
6) Like Knives – City & Colour
5) Comin’ Home – City & Colour
4) Happiness by the Kilowatt – City and Colour
3) Sometimes (I Wish) – City & Colour
2) Sensible Heart – City and Colour
1)Wasting Time – City & Colour

and I haven’t talked to him once. And this time it was all my effort trying to call him and text him. I’d call him/text him once every three/four days. And yesterday I finally decided to give up.

I’m just confused as to why some 29 year old “boy” apparently would decide to tell me his exact feelings, when I’ve known he was my dream guy before I even met him. He knew how crazy I was about him.

Congratulations. This time though, it’s different. My heart doesn’t even hurt as bad as it should. And I know it’s because I’ve gotten this bullshit from SO MANY different guys the past couple of years, that well, sadly enough, I just EXPECT it now. How sad.

I would love to just roll over in my bed, snuggle my pillow, and cry myself to sleep… but I’m not going to… And the next time, if it ever happens, that my phone rings and it’s him.. I won’t answer.. I won’t let anyone continue to jerk me around like that… Screw you.

So to every guy out there, including this guy Ryan, you’re all missing out on the most incredible girl you’ll ever meet. I swear, I’m not just shitting around here. I’ve got a good head on my shoulders, and the biggest heart on my sleeve. Sad that guys are just worried about the vagina in my pants.

“I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall…”

And no matter how childish I can sound right now… Fuck all these guys!