I’ve been in a relationship for over 2 years now, my jealousy has sky rocketed from no prob to everyone is a potential threat.
I don’t like it, It’s not who I am.
I trust my loved one, and by no means do I own him, he is and will always be free to do whatever his heart so desires.
I know I’m just afraid to lose him, and I also know that I never truly will no matter what, but…
It’s a feeling I can’t quite control.
I’ve always lacked motivation.
It’s not really that I’m awfully lazy, I get things done when I need to. When I’m having company over in a few hours, BAM I’m up cleaning house like a mad woman. I’ve gotten better at forcing myself to do my responsibilities.
It’s the things I actually want to do that I have the worst trouble motivating myself to do. Even now this is a form of procrastination on a day I have some free time.
I’d like to stop being so lazy towards my hobbies.
It’s difficult for me to express how I accomplished this, the best way I can put it is, the love was always there inside of me, but it wasn’t until I made it into a better stage of my life that I could fully allow myself to feel it, give it and receive it.
You have to want it, try for it, risk it.