The Brat Formerly Known As Padatha

because I AM moving soon, lol, and what I’ve noticed is that knowing we are leaving, I am much more focused on what I like and love here and less troubled by what I don’t like, because it won’t last forever.

I’ve heard the saying, ‘live as if you will die soon’, but that never works for me. For one thing, I don’t believe it, lol, and for another, that’s a whole different ball game, and I have no idea how I’d really live if I knew I was dying soon. Moving I can believe and relate to!

Also, being a homemaker, I tend to get lackadaisical (does that mean I am lacking a daisy???) about some things; I know I can put off doing morning dishes, for example, or take my shower late. But I really like to do things early and be done and ready for the day. Thinking that a realtor might call and want to show the house is great motivation! LOL

So it boils down to this:

Appreciate the good (because it won’t last)
Don’t be so bothered by the bad (because it won’t last)
Stay motivated each day! (because it won’t last!)

:)

It starts out with me floating on my back on a serene lake. The sky above is peaceful blue, with a few white fluffy clouds drifting slowly by. The lake is surrounded by trees. I can hear birds singing, water lapping. I feel weightless and safe and free and at peace.

I begin drifting with a current, and I am taken into a river that exits the lake. It is at this point that I realize I am a leaf! I float on the water as it gains momentum, as it gallops over rocks and spins and twirls and rushes along! Very gradually, it quiets down and slows down, becoming a smaller and smaller river, then a stream, then a very little creek.

Finally, it enters a town, where it continues to shrink, until it is a little stream of water running along the edge of a street, in the gutter. It becomes so shallow that I (now part leaf, part human!) have to get up and run along side it it in the street to keep up with it! I am surprised at how fast it is moving still, despite its tiny size. I am worried now, because keeping up is difficult, and because my river may soon disappear completely.

But then, I am filled with a KNOWING that up ahead at some point where I can’t see, the trickle I am chasing will pick up again, and grow, and that it will return to the lake! There is no doubt. This is what will happen. So I continue alongside it, and as it grows larger, I leap back in to float along once more, back to the lake, to the peace and serenity and safety, to float effortlessly and without concern on its lovely supporting waters.

When I told this dream to a friend, she told me I am very lucky, because no matter what comes my way in life, I have that dream to hold onto.

ball myself up tightly and roll around just in my own little space too much.
Sometimes I like it but sometimes it feels like I’ve caged myself, then I get the sense that Life is happened OUT THERE somewhere, not here within me. I learn a great deal from silence and from alone time, I just overdo it.
Like many people who’ve seen it, I love the bits of wisdom in the movie Under The Tuscan Sun. I love the chances she took, the courage to face her demons alone and charge ahead into new, uncharted territory. I love Crazy Blond Catherine! Her lines made me look into more of Fellini’s films.