TheClueInBlue

Hello everyone . Here it is – acrylic on canvas .

Here it is . Acrylic on canvas .

I am loved … and I want to feel it over and over …

I’m so used to bite my nails . I tryed to stop but than I scretch myself . So pathetic …

2 years ago I gave up on looking for the right person . Instead I was looking for a friend . I looked deep into the eyes of each person and when I saw my husband for a first time , I just new , he’s going to be my friend . We both were married before and had and still have a load of trust issues . It’s a hard but rewarding work when you really want to build the trust with your friend . And sometimes we feel like victims in our lives but help is inside of us . I always have ask myself “can blind person can help another blind person to cross the street” and the answer is ‘yes’ . We all so screwed up that it helps to feel others pain

I like to laugh at myself, but I’ve been worned ,if next time I’m not going to explain my laughing , I’ll be terminated … They think , I’m laughing at them .

I hate feeling of guilt after words . If you know what it’s like – the help is inside of you . I’m still working on controling my temper and it’s so rewarding to see how your friends come back , how you can light up faces of people you live with a smile instead of short “go away”. I don’t want to take myself seriosly anymore and stopm on other peoples feelings just to prove my point . Things still irritate me but I got my place in a middle of ocean where I take myself just have to have one goal – breath (what else would be important in life when you drowning; it doesn’t matter if everybody around pushing your buttons or trying to save you by drowning even more – you still love them , right ?). If you like being controling – try to control yourself , you’ll see what a jerk you are . Teach yourself a lesson until you get it or go in circles forever like a trained pony !

i want to know what is it so scary about death and why at the same time we beg for it when times are hard . is it an end or just a beginning ?