TheLinton

.....it almost made me feel sick with myself! I won’t go into it here, far too embarrassing!

But what I will say is that I’ve made certain rules with myself, i.e. no TV apart from Joyce Meyer (Christian preacher) before 6.30pm on weekdays. On weekends I watch in moderation and make lists of things to do that involve being more active.

They say habits are formed and broken in 30 days so I’m currently on day 5! It’s hard at times but I’m determined that this box isn’t going to influence my day…

I’m currently sitting here with it off and in silence which is incredibly unusual for me. I want to get on with hoovering my flat but my sister’s asleep in the next room.

No TV has made me want to live my life more and be more social instead of being cooped up in my flat feeling isolated! How can I expect to feel more social if I just hibernate? Huh?

Things that didn’t even occur to me before make perfect sense now I’ve admitted I’m an addict…..

I’m an insomniac, suffer with large fibroids and I’m pre-menstrual. I’m absolutely exhausted which is why I haven’t hit the shower yet. I simply feel unable to cause I’m so tired. And yes, it’s 1.30pm but I feel sooooo guilty….

....I used to obsess about my looks and weight etc…. One thing I’ve realised is that the things I watch/read actually DO affect me.

I’ve stopped watching a lot of shows that focus on image and it seems to be working! I no longer look at my reflection with contempt.

Now I’m working on believing I’m loveable and indeed, likeable…God is working with me on this one.