I'm doing 32 things
Over the past few years, my anxiety has slowly been shoving it’s way into everything: My diet, my social interactions. Really everything. Last April I hit a low point of sorts. I would wake up in a panic. Going to sleep was really tough. Not sure why, but the dark just seemed to make it worse. Soon I was literally dreading sun down like I was in some horrible monster movie. This is part of where the anxiety pops in. I spent most of the day worrying about being afraid. It really was ridiculous. Cutting out sugar helped with the panic attacks to a degree, but even still I get anxious about being anxious.
I worry about such stupid things, and I KNOW how dumb it is, but I can’t help it. The biggest thing is food. I literally have stopped eating so many things because I’m worried I’m going to get sick. Then if I do get sick, I worry that the pills are going to make me feel gross or some weird side effect is going to eat my soul. Even aspirin and vitamins are a no go. I guess in a way it all comes down to feeling off. I’ve felt so mediocre for so long, that even the thought of feeling better then normal scares me.
TheLitlOne's Life List
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1. eat healthier food
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2. control my anger
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3. lose the baby weight
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4. be a freakin' awesome mommy
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5. Get a tattoo
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6. Do something new every month
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7. document my baby's childhood with photos, videos and momentos
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8. Learn Japanese
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9. Dress Gothic Lolita
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10. Write every day
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11. be more outgoing
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12. Visit Japan
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13. eat less sugar
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14. finish The Artists Way
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15. Do stretching exercises everyday
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16. clean house every day for 10 minutes
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17. play with my child more
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18. get my permit
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19. January 2011 Bootcamp: Steady Progress & Kind Self-Care
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20. overcome anxiety
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21. list 100 things that make me happy
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22. get a job
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23. stop yelling at my kids so much
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24. make 2011 my year of transformation! :-)
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25. Draw daily
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26. knit more
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27. get off the internet
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28. get out of the house more
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29. do yoga
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30. buy a new matress
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31. try oil-pulling for a month
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32. eat greens everyday
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How I did it: I moved to a town closer to her and she drove up and visited me! We hung out and did a bunch of nothing and ate my burnt barbeque...And our babies got to meet and it was fun and then we had doughnuts. Read how I did it…
How I did it: I went with my best friend to get his birthday piercings. While there my hisband and him teamed up to convince me to get a piercing myself. So I followed my friend's lead and got my nipples pierced. Read how I did it…
I love my daughter like crazy (4), but sometimes I get so frustrated, like many moms and dads. After about the 10th time asking her politely to please stay out of the bathroom, or please stop terrorizing the dog, I just get so frustrated. I definitely need to find a better way to get through to her little mind then yelling.
I purchased ( along with my husband) a matress year before last with no idea what i was doing and ended up with one that is just too darn hard! This year I think it would be benificial to us both to find one better suited to our sleeping patterns. Yep, definately.
