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I want to stop experimenting on my face. I don’t really pick my skin anymore, but whenever I use ANYTHING else than Cetaphil, it makes me break-out. So when I have this whiteheads like the other day – how NOT to scratch them even with a towel?

The truth is I need to stop experimenting and use the only thing that doesn’t break me out.

I can’t use moisturizers on my face either. Although that’s the only way I thought of to get rid of my scars (which actually is impossible, unless I go on laser), and I’ve spent a lot of money on moisturizers, astringent toners, stuff like that, I will have to stop using them.

So my routine starting today will be:

Cetaphil to wash my makeup off, Cetaphil to freshen up, a thin layer of Cetaphil to moisturize and then the oil free estee lauder foundation.

I have to keep this up and cannot change the opinion.

It’s been approximately 10 years since I started picking on my skin. I wanted to stop, and occasionally I stopped but I always started again. It’s ruined my self-confidence, a few of my relationships and it distanced me from my family (partly because I blamed them for feeling the anxiety that I considered led to this and partly because my mother would occasionally pick on my skin – even though as a child I hardly could have anything to pick on – but she did). My parents were the first to prohibit the picking to me, which only made me do it more (when I was 20 yo). So this created a lot of problems in my social life, although I still function well enough. I think the vicious cycle started with the use of liquid foundation, and although now I use oil-free Estee Lauder, I think this is not good for my sensitive skin, so I would like to take that to minimum, also.

So these are my goals:

1. stop picking and touching my skin.
2. minimize the use of liquid foundation.
3. drink more water.

Actually, I’ve just read here a trick with water – whenever you feel like picking, drink water, so I’ll try that.

My goal is to achieve to stop picking on my skin in 2 months, and to announce that here on 30.10.2009. (my birthday).

I’m really happy I found this. And I am determined to succeed. :)