I'm doing 43 things
I can’t stand the fact that I can’t stand myself. I can’t even go outside in public without feeling extremely uncomfortable. I don’t want to talk to people because I’m afraid they’ll judge me or make fun of me. I’m so anti-social and don’t have any friends because I don’t want anybody to see me… I’m afraid that if I do make friends that I’ll end up lying to them just so that they’ll like me. I just don’t know how to change this. =/ I was homeschooled for over 7 years and never really had a lot of contact with people after that. I’ve even been having anxiety attacks lately… I feel like a complete freak. Ugh!!!
Jack's Life List
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1. lose 10 pounds
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2. scream at the top of my lungs
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3. be good at photography
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4. learn how to draw
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5. always stay true to myself
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6. get out of the house more
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7. gain more confidence
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8. write a song
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9. learn how to drive
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10. never, EVER grow up
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11. start a rock band
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12. stop being so shy
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13. be happy with my gender
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14. have inner strength
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15. stay single
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16. become a big muscle man
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17. Catch 'em all
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18. make peace with the past
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19. not be afraid of life
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20. exercise daily
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21. Take self defense classes
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22. Go To Germany
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23. Go To Puerto Rico
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24. Get a dog from the pound
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25. become a fashion designer
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26. learn how to play guitar
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27. feel freedom
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28. Get over my fear of people
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29. Learn German
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30. Learn Spanish
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31. Learn Japanese
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32. get a meaningful tattoo
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33. get piercings
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34. Go to an AFI concert
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35. Beat all those stupid games I never finished
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36. Take singing lessons
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37. Learn how to breakdance
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38. Go on a shopping spree
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39. open my mind to new things
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40. get over my depression
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41. meet one of my idols
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42. Go to a Dir en grey concert
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43. Go to Japan
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Recent entries
This will never happen, obviously. haha Oh well, if it is to happen then it will. But until then, my friend. I give up!
Since I ate meat!! I’m so happy. It was the best thing I’ve done for myself. Lost 5 pounds from it too. =D It’s just so much healthier and makes me feel good knowing I’m not consuming the flesh of a once life filled creature. I thought it was going to be hard when I started but it was really easy. I had the support of my sister who is also vegetarian which definitely helped. If you are struggling just surround yourself with people who are supportive of your choices. It makes a big difference!
