Ilona Forshey

i just would like to tell him how he has influenced my life.

i kind of have my own.

I’m a deperessed suicidal artist as well and I’m trying to start a band. I don’t like him because he’s famous, I like him cause he knows how I feel. I was about to commit suicide so I popped in a cd my friend had given me and it was “I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love”. I sat there listening to the cd ready to drive the knife into my heart, I listened to his voice and said,”GEESE!This guy’s more fucked up than me!”. So I put down the knife, Turned up the music and painted. He has greatly influenced my art, my poetry, and my life. His music stirs hidden deamons inside me that I’m not ready to face, but my time has come and it’s death or glory now!!!! I abuse my perscriptions and I’m falling deep into drugs, but I don’t care because Gerard has inspired me!! I’m going to ditch drugs and guess what world I’M BI AND IF YOU HATE ME FOR IT THEN F* YOU!!!!!!!! I will fight my deamons and if I don’t defeat them then I die with A Smile on my face and LOVE FOR GERARD IN MY HEART!!!! I think I’m insane and I’m ok with that! Puleez give me his e-mail i just want to tell him how he saved my life! My e-mail’s harnesstheslums@yahoo.com.